I wish no one to bother with this post, I just need to write to get it out.
I can not take all of this anymore, everything has gone wrong in my life, with the mystery mental illness I have, if I new what it was then maybe I could help myself or something, but I don’t know what it is, I have not slept properly in about 10 months, during this time I have changed so much, I don’t know why I wanted to live, ive attempted suicide a number of times, but i have always bottled it at the last moment because I didn’t want to hurt my friends like that, but now they hate me for a number of reasons which I can not be bother explaining, again, its all about the mystery mental illness.
Im driving myself to insanity, and I don’t want to. I would rather die than live through another day like this, its torture every minute of every day, Ive looked and asked for help but nothing.
so I cba with life anymore.
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im sorry i dont know what cba means? but i understand that. you know how i look at death?? ultimate freedom.
No, shit! dont leave!, chat with us, at least! shit! please! you are such a nice girl! you can always change friends, they were not real friends, how old are you? come one girl please! want to write me? please, come one
you say that you wish to bother no one with your post, you dont bother us at all. you will leave us devastated,. come on girl you cannot leave the team please!
cba means can’t be arsed.
and im 15
i see death as a peaceful thing.
not a horrible measure.
but, are you sure this is what you wanna do?
i agree with takemefaraway, death is a thing of peace. it lets you out of a world that constricts you to everyone elses idea of “right”
I just….dont see the point anymore.
No one accepts me, ive tried, I really have, but Ive lost everything, and I wish I could go back and do things different but I can’t.
yes, you can! you can everything! you cannot leave us, we need you. There is a lot of fun coming up in the future. Write me in detail
For every girl who makes it to the summer, I will book a place in a Cruise in the Mediterranean.
rampside-girl write me alvaro@ya.run
shit i mean alvaro@ya.ru (without the n at the end)
alvaro at yandex.ru
my email is abit weird, I can only reply to things at the moment, so email me at helpme@live.co.uk
I have emailed you already
okay,i’ll look now
my email has crashed, try emailing me at www. hana-init@hotmail.com
sorry no space its, http://www.hana-init
without the http:// and with the @hotmail.com at the end, sorry
just emailed you
sorry if i dont reply, my email is pretty screwed up at the moment
i got your email, and replied, hopefully you got it two. look also in the spam box just in case it redirects it there