im tired, worn out, dont feel like going on. no one cares, they simply hide behind false smiles. i put on this facade everyday that im alright, but then i just sit and laugh as people go about their daily lives, seemingly care free. i was depressed, and sent to a rehab center, and there i was molested by a security guard, everyone thinks it only happens to girls, that B/S. i just want the nightmares to stop, for the pain to go away, and there is only one thing that can take it away. im just tired, i want this to be done. im just so sick of people saying cheer up, youll be ok. I WILL NOT BE OK! i cant do this anymore……. i just want to feel nothing, numbness that will make me feel safe. what have i done do diserve this? what did i do to hurt everyone so much that ive been given this pain? i just want to go back to the way my life used to be, back when i was happy. it seems like it was so many years ago. i havnt smiled in so long, and its been even longer since ive laughed. is there anyone who can save me from this horrible pain?
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there is always something you can do to change your life. If you were happy once, you know how it feels and you know what you need to be happy. The pain will subside once you let go of the fear. Everything is built on fear.. once you let go of it everything changes.
yes i can help you cause i completely understand!!! i better hear from you! im here! 🙂
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