I’mÂ surprised I’m still here if I’m honest. Things haven’t exactly worked out very well, though reading some of these posts mine seems almost stupid..
I have some mental disorders, not yet diagnosed and after a year with no help and being disowned by my friends and family, i can no longer cope with it all.
Now, let me explain why they all disowned me, I see and hear things that are not there, I constantly fight with the voices and the drumming in my head, I cannot control what I do or say because someone controls me, I named him John,Â he hurts me and says nasty things to me every minute of every day, he tells me that I am worthless and I should die. My family do not understand, they think its just hormones or something, and as for my friends, well John lies to them alot, they can’t trust me anymore, and for the ones who did trust me, they found out what was wrong with me and soon ditched me from their lives.
My best friends were at risk, I wanted them safe but John wanted them dead, so I had to stay away from them to protect them, and that is how I became alone in this world, and as you can imagine, its not nice. I soon gave up with my life and I am waiting for the right time to go, maybe some people will miss me, most probably won’t but I dont care, because nothing compares to what is going on in my head, the sooner its over, the better.