General leaving by wishicould 1/12/2010 written by wishicould 1/12/2010 ive ruined everything. goodbye. 15 comments 0 Email Related posts Cache 6/25/2022 Imagine that 6/23/2022 Protected: The Universe will Sort it Out for... 6/23/2022 6/23/2022 6/23/2022 6/21/2022 My father will be the death of me 6/21/2022 WTF 6/21/2022 Hear me. See me. Anyone. 6/20/2022 Highlights of my depression this year so far 6/20/2022 15 comments whiteylover 1/12/2010 - 11:44 pm I hope your only talking about leaving this site WishICould Log in to Reply wishicould 1/12/2010 - 11:53 pm ha! no. Log in to Reply whiteylover 1/12/2010 - 11:58 pm What happened to suddenly make you decide that? Just things building up or what? Log in to Reply wishicould 1/13/2010 - 12:21 am ehh i guess. im just ready to let go now. Log in to Reply whiteylover 1/13/2010 - 12:23 am Done holding on? Log in to Reply wishicould 1/13/2010 - 12:25 am pretty much. i wanna do it, every part of me is completely calm and saying,” this is the right thing, and this is the right time. it will be quick, just go.” but i cant leave my dad to find me. so i have to abandon the perfect circumstances. Log in to Reply whiteylover 1/13/2010 - 12:25 am How are you planning to do it? Log in to Reply wishicould 1/13/2010 - 12:29 am i was planning on pills. but my dad locks them all up now. every part of me is screaming yes but im to worried about my dad to listen to myself. Log in to Reply whiteylover 1/13/2010 - 12:30 am Yeah, it would be really hard for your dad, hell it would be extremely hard for any parent…. Log in to Reply wishicould 1/13/2010 - 12:33 am i know. thats the only reason i cant do it. ive accepted death. i dont know where i’ll go after here but it will be beautiful. so instead of causing death, i will simply choose the path of praying to a god who doesnt exisit to let me die. Log in to Reply whiteylover 1/13/2010 - 12:37 am So, your not going to commit suicide, or what? Log in to Reply wishicould 1/13/2010 - 12:38 am im still weighing the boundries. but theres a very good chance if i can find a way. my dad has the house vaccum sealed pretty much. Log in to Reply whiteylover 1/13/2010 - 12:50 am I see. Log in to Reply J.F.D. 1/13/2010 - 4:02 am What have you ruined? Log in to Reply SX_Kitten2 1/13/2010 - 11:20 am Pills are never a good idea. Talking from experience here… You pass out, you wake up, vomit and then you’re alive again!! I have tried slitting my wrists too, strangely enough, my scars have gone! All this was done about 12 years ago, when i was at high school, and the bullying and discrimination got way over my head!! My parents didn’t care much about me, and they still don’t! But ive learned to live with my self loathing, yes, my state of mind does wander back and fourth from suicide to happy and back again, but whats the point in punishing your creators?! Yea, they made you the person you are today (however much they think you’re complete scum of the earth!!) Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.