life never okay..

I’ve been there.
A place no one wants to go.
Not ever.
Being touched in bed at night, to being beaten unconscious.
Life never gets better for me.
I now lay awake at night scared of him coming in.
Scared to close my eyes and I’d open them and he’d be there.
That pain never goes away in my mind.
I have scars from all of the pain he caused me.
Cutting is my main coping resource, suicide running through my mind everynight.
The want to just end it all makes my brain freeze in time.
One day it will be over, and I’ll be gone. maybe soon.
Its all i hope for now..