Real eyes. Realize. Real lies.

  January 2nd, 2010 by rose.

For the longest time, I felt alone, So alone. My boyfriend and I broke up, and I thought we would hate eachother, we didn’t talk for months. About 6 months ago, we started talking again. He became my best friend, still madly in love with him, things started to go my way. I thought I was flying, I felt amazing. Sex with him? .. No, But the simple holding hands, watching movies until we fall asleep on the couch, just the little things. He made me feel like I had a reason to be alive, like he needed me here, wanted me here, he made me feel like I had a purpose. Tonight, that all got ripped down, He confessed that he didn’t want me, he didn’t need me. Everything he ever said to me was a lie. Now, I feel so hurt, so lost. I finally thought that life was starting to look up, I thought I had a reason to be here. He was the only reason for the smile apon my face, he’s the reason I woke up each morning, Now seeing that all I was told, all the ideas and feelings I got were all just one big lie, I just want to leave and never come back. I want to be far away, I want to be dead. I got stabbed in the back by my best friend, and I got my heart ripped out by the love of my young life. I just want it to be over with now.

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