In recent years, for some reason i keep thinking things may turn around. what shit. things only get worse, like the growing pain i have living. in recent years ive had 2 sepereate relationships ending in getting cheated on.. i dont complain to people i know, as i would burden and alienate them, as i have done to all of my friends. i recently lost my best friend to suicide. I have no one to talk to. i lost my car. my job. my frinds. family. and parts of my body from accidents. I have cancer.