In recent years, for some reason i keep thinking things may turn around. what shit. things only get worse, like the growing pain i have living. in recent years ive had 2 sepereate relationships ending in getting cheated on.. i dont complain to people i know, as i would burden and alienate them, as i have done to all of my friends. i recently lost my best friend to suicide. I have no one to talk to. i lost my car. my job. my frinds. family. and parts of my body from accidents. I have cancer.
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I feel like a shadow. I dont feel human. the only feeling i have anymore is numb. i dont need to find god. Ive been to church. spending thousands of dollars i dont have to try to change my impending death would what? buy somone time to cut me down some more. If I die naturallly before i can solve my own problem. would be looked as just another failure in my library of terrible choices.