I’m 18 years old and my family have made me into someone I hate. Ever since I can remember my sister, who is two and a half years younger than me, has been vile and unpleasant. She has turned my Dad into someone completely different, someone who refuses to listen to anyone, who drinks all the time, who is violent and cold. My Mum has Bipolar and has attempted to overdose at least three times that I can remember, directly as a result of problems caused by my sister. My sister is now six months pregnant at 15 and my parents are supporting her. The baby is due around the time of important exams for me, ones which will determine whether or not I get into university but I doubt I’ll even get that far anyway at this rate.
Despite the fact that I have been good and well behaved and never lied to them they are happier to support my sister and spend hundreds of pounds on things for her and the baby then they are to support me and look after me and be parents to me. They say I can leave if I don’t like it.
My Dad refuses to listen to anything anyone says and is full of hatred. When I try and talk, he leaves the room. No one cares what I think or what I say. When I ever manage to get anything out, I am told I am wrong.
My friends have pretty much forgotten about me. I am not invited to things much anymore and no one has taken much interest when I have tried to talk to them about it. I am ill nearly every day and I cry at the smallest things. I went to my doctor but she thought I was just a bit stressed and sent me away.
I have tried and tried to talk to the people around me, my friends and my family about how I feel but no one cares. No one listens and if they do they don’t take into account anything I say. My sister calls me a **** and a ***** and tells me to grow up and to move out on a daily basis. I don’t understand how it’s acceptable for her to say those things to me, especially as I am her older sister.
No one shows me any respect or cares for me or rings me to see if I am okay. There is no one I feel I could turn to if I needed a shoulder to cry on. No one wants me or thinks I am worth knowing or even likes me. I am constantly rejected and made to feel worthless and bad and I’m sick of crying every night and no one fucking cares.