do u ever get the feeling like ‘ is that it?’ is this what i was born for , to just exist and nothing more? Do u ever get the feeling your never going to be happy, as in, your were just not meant to be ?
i really feel like this is it you know? this is what the rest of my life is going to be like , ill never be happy to the extent I want to be , ill just be , ill just exist , go through life doing all the things im supposed to do , like everyone else, only without even getting to experience the pleasures that we all have a right to by being prisoners to the modern society.
i dont have the balls to even attempt suicide, even though i want to so much. i dont want to live the rest of my life like this , being unhappy , alone , depressed and without a hope of it gettin any better. im stuck , stuck in this thing called life , the only way of setting myself free is blocked by my own cowardliness.
so do you ?do you get that feeling? cause thats all im feeling lately.
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I have always felt that way. I am not going to try to talk you out of something that I myself want to do and just like you am to cowardly to follow through with. I question my existence all the time and I can’t seem to find any answers to the question “Why am I here?” We have the rotten luck of being born in a time after the “golden age” of the USA. The economy is shit and everyone feels it. Someone once told me that the only person who will understand me and be with me until I die is myself. Yet when you look at the life of an individual who doesn’t understand why they are here or what their purpose is then, is that individual not alone? Going through the motions is the only real way out of depression; a way to get used to it and live with it. It’s not fun. It’s not easy. It’s unfortunately the way things are and the way things will be until the downfall of the United States of America and the rise of something (hopefully) better and more conducive to the human condition.