And i give up. I can’t watch all of the sorrow i create around me. I have ruined so much. I’ve used up my attempts at having a good life, being a good person. I go through the work week so numb and on the weekends i sit alone, numb, in bed. I drink till i fall asleep. and then do it again. i can’t go on with this garbage. and so i deserve death. no more pain for those around me. no more wasted time and others money. Ill live alone and die alone. goodnight.
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No matter how many times you tell yourself you are alone, you are not. we all here are in pain at the very same time. we may not be able to touch or talk to one another at this very moment but we are still all here,
together some how. No one deserves to die, just some people choose not to live. if that makes sense…
something funny happened to me last night. i had came back from my human bio class and got myself ready to end it all in some wristcutting scene in the bathtub. hoping no one would find me till the blood had completely filled the water. i did all the final glance at the mirror, the sad sob music and submerged myself in the water. After all the preperation, i thought to myself What if a spider crawls into the bath tub…haha i am deathly afraid of spiders. a stupid arachnid kept me from staying in the tub and killing myself.
U sound like a male version of me!
Read my post..
Lonelygirl