Right, I haven’t been on here for a while. My life has not improved despite everyone saying it would. I hate it, I hate it all. My head is a war zone, I hate who I am because Im not me anymore, Im a freak, Im going through hell because of thingsout of my control, things inside my head that I can’t cope with. I don’t care about anything anymore, so many things, have happened that I never want to remember,Â I thought it was just a phase I was going through but as time goes on Im realing that without noticing Im planning my own death in my head, and the thought of dying, of leaving this world, it doesn’t bother me, im not scared. Im not scared to die. And thats all that was stopping me, the fear IÂ may regret it, andsome of you may say that I will regret it, but you will soon change your mind if you had to be me, for one day, thats all it would take.Â I mean I tried I really did, Ive felt this way for a VERY long time, and im just so sick of it all, everything i touch is ruined or destroyed, everyone I know is miserable because of me. I never wanted to hurt any of them but I did, in one way or another ive hurt everyone I know and care for, im just a screw up, i deserve to die.
My name is Hana, Im 15, and Ive offically fucked up my life, I don’t care anymore and I should just go die!