Somebody loves you!

I lost my brother in law sept 8, 2009 to suicide, I remember being at home starting to cook dinner,and the phone rang, it was my sister she was frantic just screamin he’s dead, he hung himself, he’s dead! I didn’t understand it took a couple minutes for it to sink in before i started to puke from the shock. She was crying hysterically, He had committed suicide and nobody knew, they found his body a day later. My sister and I were married to brothers, so as soon as I got off the phone with her, and told her i would be there for her shortly, I had to call my husband(his brother) at work and tell him the news. I could not stop crying, it seemed so unreal, he left behind a wife and three little kids 9,7,5 left no note no reason. My husband was terrified, this was his best friend how could he do this to all of us?? He had a lot of problems but if he would have just talked to someone, told us that he needed help, we would have saved him. He didn’t realize how much people really did love him. I am writing this because I do not understand how you can want to end your life, You touch peoples lives in so many different ways each day, you don’t realize how much of an affect you will have if you actually go through with it. I have not had an easy life, my mom, sister, and aunt were killed in a car accident when i was 10yrs old, and my father hit me, I still got through it. I am not judging anyone, I am more pleading with you please do not go through with the thoughts! You will only hurt the ones that love you even more. ask for help, if your truly sincere, someone will help,it is never to late to change your life around it does take work and sacrifice, most people do not get it handed to them you have to want it, I still keep thinking if We just would have read the signs, he attempted twice before, and went to therapy, he was never happy with himself. Please don’t feel like this, Now i have to see how his kids are dealing with this, it is horrible, a piece of my husband died with him, i do not see it ever being the same. I beg you if you need to talk , let someone know you are loved, and you would be missed. Do not do this out of spite, because you won’t even be here to see the end result. I wish i could go back to the day that he did it, and just give him a hug and tell him everything would be ok. This has affected everybody and not for the better, I still cry daily, i don’t know if i will ever get over this, But we will all stick together and support each other. If anyone needs to talk please email me jojocavaliere@yahoo.com I am an ordinary person just trying to help the next family from a horrible tragedy.

YOU ARE LOVED!