Trying not to quit

Hi, so hows life treating you all? Well I hope fine. As for me well to be honest not good.I don’t even know how to start. I just can’t stop thinking and feeling this pain that is killing inside of me. Well he its goes. My name is Roy Rico and i live in Mission, Texas. When I was sixteen years old i try to kill myself, which is overdose. To be honest i have told no one told about this what was going in my mind when it happen. I was in high school and in sports. Iwas good in sports and smart.I just don’t know what happen to me. Well we were poor. My dad always drank beer and my mom did not gaves us attention the way it should be. I never cared if we were poor. I guess because I just enjoyed life every second of it until i felt lonely. Don’t know why. Sometimes Ithinked why I felt lonely suddenly, I was exploring the inside of me. I wanted attention, be padded on the back for doing a good job, and to be love. Yes, parents love their children but show it sometimes. Well, one day my parents went to their friend’s house. My two little brothers went with my parents. It was just my sister and me. Suddenly, tears came from eyes and felt pain like I never felt it before. I had no depression I guess I was seeing Iwas not getting attention. My dad would spanks very hard with his belt and no underwear would protect us. Well, that day when my sister and me were alone i remember just feeling lonely. I took and swallow the whole  BAYER pills. I guess GOD was watching me. Thanks, to my sister I’m alive. She saw everything I didn’t even noticed. She called 911. I was in the hospital four days. It was a nightmare. I hurt alot of people who love me when I was in the hospital. I think you get more attention when your your dying or when your in the hospital. But, its just for a while. After, I got out from the hospital I noticed I was not the same. I was seeing all the bad things in this world we live in. So I started to hang out with the wrong friends. They gave me attention.  So I became a  fighter in life (not quiting in life).