Awwwww……. Wish I could say that u would comply with your request 100% but I’ve got a rebelious streek. That and cocktail off pills the doctors left. Not to mention the grand canyon. :p
Lol the way they intially found out wasn’t too great soo idk how ths is gonna go or end. It could end with a yes or my mom breakin out the other belt again for one reason or another.
I used to want to be an equestrian and still like riding though I never really ever get ther chance and I love photography. I’ve got almost 200 pics on my itouch right now and over 1500 on my computer lol. My cousin does a lot of photography too. I used to go out with her to take pics.
Oh I have to go for now. They gave me som stuff for sleep and it’s working. Talk to you some other time. Coheck fir and comment on my entries. I’ll do th same on any of your future ones
Did you ask your mom about seeking help yet? and yeah no problem ๐ I’m not sure I saw your last post… I don’t really know how this site is organized ๐
It’s organized by date and time of the posts. Most recent first. And I was rightt she got pissed and then the insults and curses started flying. I’ll try my dad next and then if not. I might tell someone.
Better or worse? I don’t want to end up in some psych ward where I’ll actually go crazey. At least now I can be lucid the majority if the time. And truthfully I think you’re very kindhearted. You’ve eloed me and I’m sure you’ve helped others on this site as well.
I’m sorry if o sound nalodramatic or anything bit all I see ahead of me is more of what’s behind me. It’s hard to escape if your a minor. Especially when your the second child of two talented liers.
Yeah. And I wish I could embrace the meaning of your word because I know their true. But I can’t shake the necessity of getting out of this. Of escaping. Did u know my sister was actually taunting and making fun of me today because of the cutting and suicide attempt? I punched her. Then ha to be sedated even though I was already calming down. รฎโฌยฒรฎยยthis sucks
No its okay, I’ve been down in a slump before and felt that way myself. I think we all go through it. Sorry I haven’t gotten on in a few days, I was at my sisters apartment where they don’t have internet ๐ How are you doing?
Idk. The feelings come and go as does the pain. im still never sure of anything. Somtimes I just hve to wonder if this is all real. If this actually all happened. At those moments I hate myself for a totaly different reason. I know it’s confusing but at the momenta when I wonderhips I ended up like this, I start to hate myself for hating myself and bein suicidal. Then everything comes crashing down gain.
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Hello stranger.
long time no see ๐
Yay! youbactually answered!!!!
of course!
Thers a lot of people who wouldn’t.
I like you and I want you to stick around ๐
Awwwww……. Wish I could say that u would comply with your request 100% but I’ve got a rebelious streek. That and cocktail off pills the doctors left. Not to mention the grand canyon. :p
do you promise me you will at least attempt seeking professional help just once..even if its just for me?
Fine but u cnt guarenteebyou anything. My parents might not like it. Idk. Maybe they will. I just dnt know how to tell them though
I think its definitely worth a try
Lol the way they intially found out wasn’t too great soo idk how ths is gonna go or end. It could end with a yes or my mom breakin out the other belt again for one reason or another.
you should tell her as soon as possible. or at least ask her if you can get help and see what she says
Ok I’ll try.
Thats all I ask ๐
Yeah……… So what abou u
I barely know anything about u
what would you like to know?
Anything.
Um okay well I’m a freshman in college. I ride horses and I really enjoy photography
Ur kidding me
no, why?
I used to want to be an equestrian and still like riding though I never really ever get ther chance and I love photography. I’ve got almost 200 pics on my itouch right now and over 1500 on my computer lol. My cousin does a lot of photography too. I used to go out with her to take pics.
oh thats awesome! Yeah I loveeee horse riding. its my favourite ๐ do you still go out and take pics?
Not that much anymore. Of cource, right now that’s physically impossible without passing out again.
Oh I have to go for now. They gave me som stuff for sleep and it’s working. Talk to you some other time. Coheck fir and comment on my entries. I’ll do th same on any of your future ones
And plz keep my secret a secret.
Bye
alright goodnight!
how are you doing today?
Pretty bad. Did u see my post lol.
I’m glad to see you commenting a lot. Ur really nice.
Did you ask your mom about seeking help yet? and yeah no problem ๐ I’m not sure I saw your last post… I don’t really know how this site is organized ๐
It’s organized by date and time of the posts. Most recent first. And I was rightt she got pissed and then the insults and curses started flying. I’ll try my dad next and then if not. I might tell someone.
Yeah I mean I think you really need to tell someone. At least go to your school counselor, they are free and more easily accessed
And very mean somtimes. Every year on eachstudents birthday she has a meeting with them just to talk. She makes even talkin about school awkward.
Theres only one school counselor?
Yeah. Somtimes I wonder how she got hired
Well shes better than nothing haha
Better or worse? I don’t want to end up in some psych ward where I’ll actually go crazey. At least now I can be lucid the majority if the time. And truthfully I think you’re very kindhearted. You’ve eloed me and I’m sure you’ve helped others on this site as well.
It just breaks my heart that people want to give up on themselves especially when they are still young with so much ahead of them =/
I’m sorry if o sound nalodramatic or anything bit all I see ahead of me is more of what’s behind me. It’s hard to escape if your a minor. Especially when your the second child of two talented liers.
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Yeah I understand =[ I just wish I could like implant hope into you for the future ๐
Yeah. And I wish I could embrace the meaning of your word because I know their true. But I can’t shake the necessity of getting out of this. Of escaping. Did u know my sister was actually taunting and making fun of me today because of the cutting and suicide attempt? I punched her. Then ha to be sedated even though I was already calming down. รฎโฌยฒรฎยยthis sucks
I’m sorry if I’m being hard to work with. Or even melodramatic. Those are two of my many bad characteristics. Sorry
No its okay, I’ve been down in a slump before and felt that way myself. I think we all go through it. Sorry I haven’t gotten on in a few days, I was at my sisters apartment where they don’t have internet ๐ How are you doing?
Idk. The feelings come and go as does the pain. im still never sure of anything. Somtimes I just hve to wonder if this is all real. If this actually all happened. At those moments I hate myself for a totaly different reason. I know it’s confusing but at the momenta when I wonderhips I ended up like this, I start to hate myself for hating myself and bein suicidal. Then everything comes crashing down gain.
Anyway. I hope you had a good time