Iâ€™m on various antidepressants. And these pills take away my humanity.
On one hand, this is great. No more sadness, no more anger, no more self-loathing and no more suicidal thoughts.
On the other hand, no more happiness. No more joy. No more excitement or pride or energy or passion. I simply don’t care about anything anymore.
I want to make movies when I grow up (I use the phrase “grow up” lightly, since I’m already 20), but now I simply can’t find the drive to push my dreams further. I’m sitting on my ass, my mind completely empty, watching my life fly by at the speed of light, and not caring.
I know this isn’t literal “suicide”, but it’s a form of self-destruction. You can’t call this living.
My email is email@example.com and I would appreciate it if someone could email me with some…advice, I guess?