I’m on various antidepressants. And these pills take away my humanity.
On one hand, this is great. No more sadness, no more anger, no more self-loathing and no more suicidal thoughts.
On the other hand, no more happiness. No more joy. No more excitement or pride or energy or passion. I simply don’t care about anything anymore.
I want to make movies when I grow up (I use the phrase “grow up” lightly, since I’m already 20), but now I simply can’t find the drive to push my dreams further. I’m sitting on my ass, my mind completely empty, watching my life fly by at the speed of light, and not caring.
I know this isn’t literal “suicide”, but it’s a form of self-destruction. You can’t call this living.
My email is variousartists_ftw@yahoo.com and I would appreciate it if someone could email me with some…advice, I guess?
Thanks.
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so here is my advice:
stop taking the antidepressants. it is much better to think with your own natural chemicals which may lead to suicidal thoughts than to think like a machine – nothing but what those pills make you do.
you can overcome any problems in life, really, but you are stopping yourself at this rate.
please talk to me if you would like to… i would email you, but i am unsure of whether or not i should, because i can just comment here. my contact info is at skull09.net – please talk to me.
thank you for reading, and please take care
No. Antidepressants are fine for the purpose they are meant to. Antidepressants are not meant to replace you in life, but when a person has found himherself amidst a series of misfortunes that have brought him down, it blocks the negative emotions associated with it thus giving the mind and the body a break to recover until the person on his her own feels he she wants to do without them.
There is nothing wrong with needing them eventually, in the same way you need antibiotics when you have a bacterial infection. You use them when needed and while you need them, that is it.
So, I fully encourage you to keep your aims, and aspirations in sight, and little by little see how you can approach them, without being too demanding with yourself. There is nothing better to carry on and heal than an aim or goal to attain.