I have been going out with some kid for 8 months I am in love with him and i am only 12 years old people say that I cant be in lvoe but I really am i know I am he broke up with me then we went out again we broke up then went back out and then we broke and and he went out with my old best friend she thinks hes gay and she promised me she would never do that to me but by the end of the day they were dating and ever since that day that moment… I knew I never had a chance with him again because he had another girlfriend i dont talk to that girl anymore i absolutley hate her shes a hoe and I hope she dies I am fat and ugly and I know it i actually felt pretty for once in my life untill she went and ruined it for me I wanna die now I feel like I have no point in living in being in the way of other peopls lifes if Im not important if I dont enjoy life or if i dont appreciate life or anything about me I hoenstly dont think I have a reason to be living I have cut before and ive told some of my friends and they literally cried I felt horrible when I told them the looks on their face I felt like the world was at an end I didnt know what to do and I was actually really embarrissed When I told them. They all said that they had no idea because on the outside im always smiling, laughing and talking they all say i dont seem depressed at all but thats only when im at school at home im always in my room my mom and my hole family never sees me well they do but only in the morning for school after school and when their all in bed i go downstairs and sit there alone i always feel like im being watched its kinda weird I would like to get some help but I really dont want my family to find out about my depression they dont know i had a boyfriend they dont know i am so negative About myself all they know is that im always in my room with the radio blasting for some reason… One thing that i have been doing for a while is ive beenw riting in journal i have like 5 journals full of writing from like Maybe two or three months ago its crazy I write in it everyday about basically the same things but it kidna helps but once im done writing and ocne i get bored and sad and depressed I cry then I end up cutting myself and it sucks it really does I want to stop but its just so hard I wish I never even went out with this kid I am happy I did I mean he changed My life for once He made me feel good about myself surprisingly but then its all taken away from me within a day and its crazy how a best friend could break a promise with you so shes obviously not a true friend and i never want to be her friend again shes stupid and shes a hoe:)
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Oh sweetie, ur this is called becoming a teenager. These are the kind of situation u will be encountering as u go thru adolesense. its normal. These feelings u are haing seem very strong and I suggest u talk to someone u trust. I understand ur parents aren’t the first on ur list but pls fins someone to talk to. It will help u. U will find some other one to love again just give urself sometime to grow. As ur ex bestfriend good for u for turning ur back on her she doesn’t deserve ur friendship neither does ur ex boyfriend.
Just be strong don’t let anyone put u down. Ur better than that. Sometimes guys don’t really see what they have until its gone so show them all what they r missing. Be strong stand tall. U still have so much to live for, it my not seem it now but u have so much yet to experience. You will find happiness again just don’t let shelfish ppl like them put u down or anyone. U have the power to make a good life still, ur only 12 yrs old. U have yet to live the best part. Hang in there ok take care
Thanks that does make me feel better and I talk to my friend that I know I can trust and I can tell she wants to help me and I do try my best but when i think about it i cry and then i rnd up cutting which sucks but i will try my bestt
I know how u feel/felt. I’m aroun your age and am still going thru it. But instead of my guy being stolen. He died. So did my friend. I also do the same thing where I snake and laugh all day till I get to my room and cry my eyes out before cutting myself. U have to fix yourself. I didn’t and I ended up making attempts for my life which either failed or wer interrupted. Do yorself a favor and stop befor you break. I didn’t fix it and broke down in front of a friend who then told my mom. Now I’m Stuck deciding jether to listen to her and get help. Or just jump the next tome I go to visit the grand canyon.
LOVE KNOWS NO AGE!!! god. im so sick of people saying just bc your young, you dont no what love is. bs. im 16 and i know what it is. i’ve felt love, and its after-affects. i’ve been hurt SOOO badd. you dont even know what hurt is until you give someone you truly love your virginity, then things so good for about 5 more months then he dumps you? i wanted to kill myself so muchh. i dreamed about dieing. you will oversome this. i will help, if you need it. dance.cassie.dance@hotmail.com anytime.
you are still young and just being a teenager. as you grow older, you will find the one true love you want. don’t fall in love for the sake of falling in love. make a shopping list of what you look for in a person. Don’t expect to get 100% filled. just find someone that will love you and support who you are and what you want to do in life.
i been dumped a couple of time. it only made me stronger and more detemine to find the right person.
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Sam
Hello Jessica, is that your name? Minnie talks very well and is right on what she says. We also agree so if so many people agree to the same, highly likely we are right. So, just now let time do the healing thing while you know that you are on the right path. At this age of 12, these things are so frequent, boys and girls and friends and are still unstable because it takes time to find the right one. My aunt used to say that you dont know who your real friend is until both of you are at least 25. This is when personalities are more settled and therefore the ones you choose, are expected to be a little bit more reliable. This diary or journal you are writing is a great thing. As you read it back on in time, you will be amazed yourself at how you felt about a particular thing and how that does not affect you that much. It is great learning. For a start you already have a beautiful heart, and I tell you, they are so valuable in this world that most people would give anything to have any close to them.
Let us know how you are doing
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Alvaro
I hate it when people say tht im too young to be in love bc I am I know I am they wouldnt know uhm I will send u a message on your email and ill let you know Its me and we can talk on there i guess ive been doing better maybe im not even sure…