i have been feeling this same depression for about5 or 6 months.im young, i should be happy, and having fun. hell, ima teenager. but yet, i want to curl up and die. and never ever open my eyes to this pain i keep feeling again. everyone tells you, “you’ll be okay, everything will get better and go away” i’ve came to the conclusion that they’re liars. and everything will never get better. i will never fully be happy like i want.i want to die and not have to wait for this to go away. my family hates me. my friends dont care. and the only person i thought i could trust, with everything..hates me now.. i dont quite now why neither. he just dont want me anymore. i gave him everything. my virginity, my heart, my world. he was and still is my everything. i will ALWAYS love him. people say..” your too young to know what love is” bull shit. obviously i do. because i love this boy with my whole entire heart. i would DIE for him if it meant he would be happy. iw ould rather him be happy without me, than be with me and be miserable. i need to go far far away.everyone says “move on, it’ll go away” its not that damn easy.. anyone got help??
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I remember when i was a teen too, i was struggling throughtout the years with deep depression & suicidal thoughts, it’s been years ago yet
i still am feeling the same way, i only have regrets & mistakes to show for it, i never really lived life yet, i feel like a robot living in a dream, i’m not real, because of me living in the past i never really got to feel love or be loved, i wish i could go back & do it again but better without the pain & hurt that has been bottled up for a long time, i did have someone i loved very much, we were true friends & so close, now this person doesn’t want
anything to do with me at all, I gave my heart & soul but i guess it wasn’t enough even though i was only true & it only been real magical between
us all the time, so i know how you feel, i good thing for you is that you are
still young yet & there is a whole world out there yet to see, new love & adventures in life, don’t let one person ruin or rule your happiness in life,
you are much better than this, only you have the power to make things better, just got to believe you can, can’t look to friends cause they don’t really know you as well as you know yourself, family well they have there
own problems & are not able to really help you cause they don’t understand how you really feel right now, please email me at
GINAJAURIGUE@HOTMAIL.COM
i’ve got help!
“i’ve came to the conclusion that they’re liars. ”
they are. you are exactly right.
“and everything will never get better.”
this is where you go wrong. and surely you don’t think this really.. or why are you still here? there is hope, and hopefully you know this.
“i would rather him be happy without me, than be with me and be miserable.”
this shows that you really do know that love is not selfish, and so i’d say you do know love… i myself am also waiting for my love to come back to me, but not for my sake.
this is how you can escape it all: give up.
no, not suicide, but just not thinking about yourself, your own wants and your own feelings, by forgiving others for what they do against you and by praying simply for strength rather than an easier life (which surely you seek), you can overcome the world. the world’s main goal is to kill you. everyone in the world will already die, yes, but they can’t really kill you unless they make sure you’re not gonna go to heaven. so what they do is just make sure that you die. time is either wasted, or cut off. people are either murdered by people, or they murder themselves, or they kill themselves by wasting their lives away on everything that they cannot take to the grave with them. it’s all about killing us, and yeah, the world is winning, and the world is the victim. the devil has made this a suicidal world.
i can help you get out of this, i really can, and i’ll give you everything i’ve got. please talk to me. my contact info is at skull09.net
take care please, and thanks for reading
Sometimes they are right when they say “you’ll be okay, everything will get better and go away”, sometimes they are not. But whether they are right or wrong, that doesn’t help you right now anyway.
I’ve been where you are, and there are two hard things to do to feel better. The first is to make the decision that you want to stop feeling unhappy and to do that you are prepared to let go of your love. That’s probably something you don’t want to do. Maybe when you feel bad, that’s the only thing that makes you feel better. Thinking of him may bring you solace, but it traps you in your pain.
When you decide that you want to, have to, move on… then the next hard thing to do is stop thinking of him. You can do that by whenever he appears in your thoughts, think of something – anything else. This doesn’t work at first, but slowly it will. You just keep doing it again and again. Thinking, feeling about him constantly traps you. If you stop doing that, your sadness will pass. That sadness will pass.
This is easy to type, horrendously difficult to do.
I can relate to that feeling of wanting to disappear, to fade away as if I’d never been here in the first place. I am here though.
Do not think of it as a life or die thing, that is not the issue. You feel like crap, you don’t want to carry on with this burden you feel inside you, you feel as if you will never be happy. So why force it? Why pretend to smile and include everyone and be considerate?
It’s not a matter of taking yourself out of the equation because you already did as soon as you thought that not existing was a better option. So enjoy it, enjoy knowing that nothing can hurt you more then you already hurt now. Nothing will ever be as worse as you feel at this moment and the next time you do feel worse (through personal experience I’ve learnt it can), remind yourself you can live through it.
Survive, hold on, cling to knowing things can be better and not through death but through endurance.
thank you for your reply’s, but things are just getting worse and worse. i know im stupid. but i cant help myself.