Lifes painfall…

Well, I have thoroughly read your story and have a full understanding that you are experiencing it with deep stress. However, I feel positive about your chances to overturn 180 degrees your current situation. Not straight away if you want to take your time, but, being clear that you are intelligent, it would just take that you decide to get out of your current life, from which all your misfortunes come, and awake yourself to other realities.
I know your picture very well, if you think you are wealthy, you would be begging for bread compared to my family in America, yet, just as you, their daughter has the same kind of problems.
At the age of 18 she already has a 5 million dollar apartment in London, a row of boys she bonks with whenever she wants, but she is mentally not very well I would say.
An American psychologist is the worst ever creature you should come close to. Someone (the American psychologist) who has been brougth up in a worthless society, lacking in the most fundamental values, there is no way they can counsel anybody. There is nothing abnormal in you, you dont have any sort of psychological disturbance whatsoever. You are perfectly capable of discerning facts and assessing them, except when it comes to see yourself amidst a milieu of lack of everything, aside from money.

If you had been born in Russia, or in any place where you had had to wrestle with life, you would not have those millionaires occupations of the mind. Basically you have the luxury (and the curse) of the rich. The only thing that would be missing to complete the picture is that you say you suffer from migraigne. Depression and headaches is always what millionaire women complain about.

So, because of the great potential you have inside you as you are intelligent, sensitive to feel the pain, make a plan in your life, fix yourself for this summer to go to some Non Govermental Organization Mission to some miserable country in the world, and get involved in there. Go to Russia, go to Beslan, visit the children who were taken hostages by the muslim terrorists and go into their homes. Live with them. Or go to South America, Bolivia, go to the salt mines, and see people making 5 dollars a day working 16 hours a day.

I guarantee, when you return, you will not recognize yourself, you will have become 10 years older, you will be more mature, and you can tell your psychologist that it is over with the psycho game. Now, this is not a thing to do once and that is it. You will be committed for life to helping other people.

What is happening to you does not come from you. It comes from your family, from that family of wealthy people who buy you expensive cars, (wtf do you need an expesive car for?) can you not see it? do you think it is an intelligent move from the parents to buy the teenager daughter an expensive car? That very much tells me the kind of values that they have passed on to you, and that is, as I say, where your disconfort comes from.

The family I told you about, mine in America. The mother was probably the second or third richest family in America, back in the years 1980. The mother never told her daugther about their fortune. She put her in a common school, she made her work to buy her first (second hand car) at the age of 18. 1000 dollars.
When the mother died, she was 39. She still didnt have a clue about what was coming. When she was called to the Notary to learn about the will of her mother, she was told she was receiving 1000 million dollars in notes alone, plus properties, skyscrapers etc.
Guess what she did? booze up and engage in sex with men? No. She went to work the day after, and since that day, she has not stopped helping people around the world, and she is the healthiest most stable woman and best woman I have ever known.