im 18. senior in high school. you think it would be the happiest time for me. but its not. i try so hard to be happy. but inside im crying all the time. i was molested when i was in grade school, my cousin is now in jail, but if he stays there is the question. my grades are poor and no university wants me. im in an art school, but have no talent, i know it, and so does everyone else. why should i even try. i thought about just ending my life since the begining of high school, but i would always chicken out. im an outsider in my family, im feel all alone all the time, even if im surrounded by people. is my life really worth living?