When I tried to kill myself, I took pills. I took 60 some Tylenol. I ended up in the psych ward of St. Luke’s Hospital, feeling like such and idiot. I consider killing myself almost daily. I try to tell myself that I don’t want to die, but more often than not I do. Your family loves you, I know mine does but my mind won’t stop pushing me. I am getting to a stage where I have to sink or swim to be considered a man. I am failing and do not want to disappoint my dad.
Alexander R. K.
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Hi Alex,
do you know what in your life is pushing you to consider this? You mentioned that you and your family are close, so I’m sure your dad wants to see you alive and well, more than seeing you succeed. that’s secondary. and whatever problems you’re going through right now, know that nothing lasts forever. please talk to your dad if you haven’t already done so. his support will help so much. trust me, there’s nothing like having the support of your family, they’re the only ones that truly care about us unconditionally. I hope this helps and everything works out with you.
i’m sorry that you feel so pressured to do this.
a man in this world is one who will live forever. maybe you could impress your dad by building the empire state building with 1 hand behind your back, or by curing cancer, or by finding the lost city of atlantis, but those things don’t matter…those things will be forgotten. one day you’ll die and there will be a funeral and everybody will miss you, but as the days go by, you’ll be forgotten…and what joy can being remembered bring you while you’re in the grave? you should check out the book of ecclesiastes in the old testament of the Bible. it will give you much, much insight about things.
please talk to me. i can help you figure out how to cope with this world. forgive your dad if he asks too much of you, please. my contact info is at skull09.net
thank you for reading..take care!
k3t you are a perverted psycho sadistic individual. fuck off with your jesus phreak speeches. They dont have to believe your crap! you are the one who really needs to have your head examined. fuck off there is never a a writing of yours where you give an advice from the heart, you are always resorting to some bible excerpts that your were brainwashed with in your village of the midwest
A really great teacher once told me “you can’t learn until you fail.” So realize that not wanting to disappoint your father is not going to be a learning experience for you or for him. Without failure, we do not learn. Express your anxiety to him, share with him that you are scared to fail and that you need him to support you when you feel like crap for failing because it is new to you.
Did the pills not work because you did not take enough? Or simply because the chance of OD on pills is too small? I have often thought of taking ibuprofen or some other pill.. I heard it is quite painful though.