who ever wil listen….

March 28th, 2010by darkangel

I’m 18yrs and at th moment im nt in school i do nothng al day an cry each night….

frm as far bck i cud rememba my lyf has bn shit…at a young age i witnesd my parents fighting…my father n brothers fighting …evryone always fighting…

my father is a selfish..abusive man..and so are my brothers n older sister….she taunts me evryday telln me hw worthls i am…and i blive her, nothing gud has come out of my existance…

my mother thnks im better off dead ,my father thinks im a waste….my otha sista plots against me…nd i hv a brother wit cerebral palsy whom i hve to care for….

iv done th cutting several times, done th drugs to forget….and i luk 4 love in any form….nd i always get hurt….

my family is bynd disfunctional n i hve no frnds…im truely alne i talk to myslf evryday…to kp me sane…

i cnstantly thnk abt death… wen i cross th street i purposly try cause an accident…so tht i myt die…bt thts faild….i pray to God each nyt to end my lyf….bt he refuse.

im nt gna ax y ths is al happening …im jus accepting it….

im waitng 4 th ryt moment to use th mixture of chemicals in my cupboard….thn its ova…

i neva thot ther r othas lyk me thts y im so happy i found ths site…ths is th world of th living dead….

we cn eitha wallow in self pity or do sumthng to end it…

No shrink or diary or pills cn fix me nw

bt anyway….i doubt anyone wil tke an interest in me or my life bt it ws jus 4 a sec tht someone myt b listening to me….

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