I just dont feel motivated to do anything…
I feel too weak to end it
and too un motivated to change myself…
guess i’m just a sorry excuse for a person….
but that’s the thing, i’ve contemplated it for a while now and i cant bring myself to do it, which i guess is a good thing…but i cant come up with a way to change…what did you do?
You shouldn’t guess..you should KNOW. It IS a very good thing. What I did was found someone I can tell anything at all and he helped me through anything in the world..no matter how many times I’d say awful crap about myself, he was still there. He is here. So just find someone who helps you through the hardest times.
Maybe it just hurts you (whatever that it is ) maybe you don’t know what it is because it’s too painful to even try and think about it . that’s happened to me so many times before . -___- i can tell you when you discover what it is , you’ll feel overwhelmed , but it’s the first step to healing .
You feel weak because there’s too much sadness inside you , you feel unworthy of your life , you try to make the most of it but you know you can’t because of the feeling inside of you (i don’t know what it is , but I’m sure that deep within you you must know) . You feel unmotivated to try and change yourself because you’ve tried it before , but it didn’t work most likely . I’ve been there too . I just doubt that the trouble is you , it’s probably within you , but it’s not you . You’re being guided by your feelings , and your feelings are just an indicator of the real problem inside of you , most likely stemming from some sort of experience (or multiple experiences placed on top of the other) sometimes the mind and emotions are so hard to figure out , but once you do , you know that one won’t work without the other , and if there’s something triggering unpleasantry from within your mind you’ll convey it in your behavior and feel it deep inside yourself .
You’re not a sorry excuse for a person . You do have a plan , and that’s the exact same reason why you’re breathing right now . You need to heal to get there , to get to where you need to go , and I hope with all the very best that you do heal so that you can reach your destination . I hope you the very best , and I truly feel that above all , you’re just lonely (: everyone needs somebody , everyone . don’t worry , we’ve all been there , I still go through that believe me , but what’s key now is not ending it , it’s overcoming it , that’s the only way you can defeat it . sometimes , you can’t do it alone , but believe me , you’re not alone (:
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You’re not a sorry excuse for a person. I’ve been down that road. And ending will NOT help anything, you’d only be hurting the people who love you.
but that’s the thing, i’ve contemplated it for a while now and i cant bring myself to do it, which i guess is a good thing…but i cant come up with a way to change…what did you do?
You shouldn’t guess..you should KNOW. It IS a very good thing. What I did was found someone I can tell anything at all and he helped me through anything in the world..no matter how many times I’d say awful crap about myself, he was still there. He is here. So just find someone who helps you through the hardest times.
Maybe it just hurts you (whatever that it is ) maybe you don’t know what it is because it’s too painful to even try and think about it . that’s happened to me so many times before . -___- i can tell you when you discover what it is , you’ll feel overwhelmed , but it’s the first step to healing .
You feel weak because there’s too much sadness inside you , you feel unworthy of your life , you try to make the most of it but you know you can’t because of the feeling inside of you (i don’t know what it is , but I’m sure that deep within you you must know) . You feel unmotivated to try and change yourself because you’ve tried it before , but it didn’t work most likely . I’ve been there too . I just doubt that the trouble is you , it’s probably within you , but it’s not you . You’re being guided by your feelings , and your feelings are just an indicator of the real problem inside of you , most likely stemming from some sort of experience (or multiple experiences placed on top of the other) sometimes the mind and emotions are so hard to figure out , but once you do , you know that one won’t work without the other , and if there’s something triggering unpleasantry from within your mind you’ll convey it in your behavior and feel it deep inside yourself .
You’re not a sorry excuse for a person . You do have a plan , and that’s the exact same reason why you’re breathing right now . You need to heal to get there , to get to where you need to go , and I hope with all the very best that you do heal so that you can reach your destination . I hope you the very best , and I truly feel that above all , you’re just lonely (: everyone needs somebody , everyone . don’t worry , we’ve all been there , I still go through that believe me , but what’s key now is not ending it , it’s overcoming it , that’s the only way you can defeat it . sometimes , you can’t do it alone , but believe me , you’re not alone (:
love nd pz,
jess .
We should make a club.
We should have BADGES 😀
lmao badges ? xP
Sure! They’ll say in massive letters:
‘I CAN’T BE BOTHERED TO COMMIT SUICIDE’
And then further down, in smaller letters:
‘Someone do it for me’
😀 We’re going to make a freaking fortune!
lmfao xP that’s some crazy shit i have to admit .
although i really truly don’t want to kill myself , just my circumstances -__-
UGHHHH .
Lol , but sure i’ll start fabricating those badges if it reaps in some cash , that way i can get the fuck out of where i live xPP :DDD !
hehe badges…
but thanks jessins….helps to know im not alone
badges….thats hilarious 🙂
ur very welcome , anytime (: