I want to die. it is the only way. You may try to save me. Like so many others. My mother, my only guiding light in this world is now no more. I can not live any longer. I need a way out. Please help me find it. I must put an end to it all, my hopeless life, my meaningless existance. I want something quick, something painless. please help
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your way out is to face what hurts you and what is bothering you. overcome it and be strong. survive through your pain for your mom, im sure she wouldnt want you to end your pain by death. you are not alone, we are here for you, i am here for you. everyone has problems and pain and we must learn to overcome them, but not through suicide. you might think that no one cares, or that no one is there with you…. it is all a lie. i am here and i am sure others will be too. your existance has a meaning in this world, otherwise you wouldnt be here in the first place. you motivate me to stay alive and fight for others like you, who need someone. i am doing this because i know what you are feeling and what you actually yearn for. you can learn to survive this and help others who are going through what you are feeling, you can save thousands of lives including yours, your death can create a suicide chain, because ppl do care. i care. it can affect ppl in your life, leaving them with guilt and the desire to do the same. trust me, i am going through the same thing, it is hard, but i read other people’s blogs or stories and i have to be there for them bc i dont want them/you to take your/their life away, it hurts me. it makes me realize that if we see no point in our existence, there is one at least that is a fact… to help others who scream for hope and love before they give up. please remember, you are not alone and we care for you. this is my cry for your survival. W/B
Final Exit by Derek Humphrey is a book which I have found helpful for myself. There are quick and painless ways to go, and if that is truly what you want then you will find it. If not there are people on here and other places who will talk you through it.
My mom is the only person that is keeping me a live and i wouldn´t know what to do if she would leave me. But you have to live for her, she wouldn´t like to be the reason you give up. You need to fight for her because she loved you and will always to. I know it doesn´t help but you cant give up. Giving up is not a option. It´s hard but you need to fight.
@Haunts All: you should not say to someone who is feeling deep emotional distress “if that is what you want, here you go”. because that is not what he actually wants in the rest of his life. Granted, He feels like that now when he loses someone like the mother He needs more support than ever. I fully understand him (or her) because I have felt like that a couple of times. However, looking back on in years, I realise that what was truly one way that day, is not so today.
@Redwine. Wonderful words, precisely coming from a girl who has undergone so much pain in the family. I hope you are feeling better.
@poster: there are no words to describe the sorrow. It is crying the only remedy now and knowing that you can love her and keep her present everyday, and as Redwine said, a mother would have not wanted ever that her child killed himself. That would be the worst thing you could do to her. Do not stay alone. Even if you are, you need to talk and see people. If in panic, there is also help available to pass the moments until you can start functioning again. Please keep posting and tell us how you are doing.
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JustAlvaro, I couldn’t disagree more. If someone wishes to die then they will die whether or not you or I or anyone else “approves”. The truth is you have no idea what some of us are dealing with, the fact that you try to keep so many alive proves that. There are over 40,000 suicides a year in America, and even higher rates (per capita) than that in other countries like Japan and Russia, do you think that some people don’t really want to die? Like someone else has mentioned, is this a game to you? Because I guarantee you it isn’t to me, I’m in a lot of pain lately and I’m not getting off on any of this but I wonder if you are, and I’m not one of them looking for a girlfriend, or a savior, or the directions to the local mental “health” clinic. If they wish to die yet have no idea about the painfree ways to exit then they will have to do something rash like jump off a cliff, jump in front of a train, cut themselves, shoot themselves and leave a bloody mess, etc. People have every right in the world (and do have the right) to know about the gases; ********, hydrogen sulfide, carbon monoxide, and helium, any of which will provide a fairly peaceful, painless, and rapid death. Final Exit (3rd edition) by Derek Humphrey provides some info abot these gases. Can you tell the difference between someone who actually wants to die and someone who simply needs to talk to someone? If you can’t tell the difference yet, maybe you should ask yourself if there are indeed two entirely different groups of “suicidal” people around here.
The last time I attempted suicide, which was 4 years ago in 2006, I took 300 benzodiazepines (clonazepams aka klonopins) because I had no idea whether or not there were better methods of self-deliverance out there. And I have never, not even ONCE said to myself “Golly I sure am glad those doctors pumped my stomach and “saved” my life,” not even once have I been glad to have survived that attempt. Worse, as a side-effect from taking that stupid POISON that you subscribed professionally like a drug-pusher, I got chronic primary insomnia and couldn’t sleep a wink for 60 nights in a row. And that’s what really made me lose my mind. All because I did not know about what the best painfree methods were out there. So when I see somebody who asks what are the best methods, I don’t automatically assume they are merely crying for help and attention, I assume they are genuinely asking the question, and I try to the best of my ability, and to the best that I can within my rights, to answer their question. So before you insinuate that others are responsible for that person’s suicide, ask yourself if you even have the right to intervene to try and stop them. The truth is we both have the right and the person will have to make the decision themselves, at least now it has the possibility of being an informed decision.
First thing I’m not like other people so thing is I’m straight and right to the point so I’m not going to be all soft and understanding.
Yea lost your mom, yea lost your family. Some people don’t have familes, some people don’t get LIFE because the end up losing it!!! And no matter how long they want to live longer they can’t because hell of some disease or whatever! You have life and you tell me you wish to die?
Your alone yes….It’s empty, it’s cold, it’s so horrible. It scares you, you don’t want to be alone.
Well for now your going to have to suck it up and do you think you mom would want to see you killing yourself? She took all this trouble to rise you only to see you die so young?! You think she’d be pride and happy about that?
@ Li: I’m not the person who posted this but you should know everyone experiences things differently and if their thinking of suicide, saying “suck it up” makes them feel even worse. everyone is entitled to their own mental limit to handle such emotions be it from not being understood or because they lost their entire family. in other words you truly don’t know how this person is feeling unless you’re living their life.
Thats exactly what I told this guy , who is “Li”? Because it seems he/she is just making everyone, including me, feel worse about themselves. You know Li, if you dont have anything nice to say, then just shut your mouth please. Know one needs your mean opinion
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