Nobody knows me

Alright great that you came here, to chat and get positive feedback from some interesting people ( I dont include myself there as “interesting” though). Well, I am pretty sure that despite all the anger, disapointment that you have or that there are stupid morons in your class, and all the bloody hell that you can describe to me, in your own writing it was more than clear your big desire of making your own future, by getting good grades, going to college etc. Of course that is what you are going to do. By all means! That is, yes you are very annoyed by your surroundings and brother or whatever, but shit! luckily, you have your own life that you are building and that is what counts. If they get drunk, well pity, but as long as you yourself don’t, we are still on the right path.

I would say that all of us knows what it is to be pissed off, so please, in our case don’t think that we don’t understand how you feel when we encourage you to carry on the right path, as you are doing.

Even though you are not native English speaker, your English is phaenomenal, it is great, and you are only 16. I cant believe it.

Let me take a guess:

1) Because you have such a high level of English being so young, I would say you are from Eastern Europe. The highest academic level in the world.

2) Because you sometimes omit the article “a”, you are from a Slavic language, it could be Polish, Russian, Baltics, etc. (where they dont use articles)

well, back to the importan thing.

If I correctly understand, you say that you applied for a school and they did not take you. And therefore, all your dreams and motives are gone.

To this:

1) The strategy in life is a combination of knowing where you want to go, and absolutely never rely on just a plan A and nothing but that, particularly when that plan A depends on other peoples actions or decisions. Jobs are being given by pointing with the finger to someone they know, or someone they got a blowjob from. Scholarships are given by finger, or to someone who gave them a blowjob, etc etc. That is the way it works. I have seen extraordinary CVs, (mine included) being thrown to the bin, just because they did not give a shit, they felt i would overwhelm them with knowledge, etc. My friend has a very high IQ, I have seen her doing mental calculations that is scary. She scored 99% of the questions correct in less the time needed and she was not taken to the post in a Bank, financial institution, but other more mediocre people did get it. She was told that her abilities outscored the requirements of the post. Fuck! the reason was that the boss was going to feel stupid in her presence. Well, that goes for everybody at different times in life.

Therefore, plan B, C and D must come into action. And when you move into the next step, do again plan B, and C. You ALWAYS must function with the WHAT IF possibility present in your mind IN ANTICIPATION. Do not just leave everything on shaking the cubicles and see if you can get 4 x 4.

Always re-elaborate strategies.

2) As per visiting the shrink. If you want to chat with him/her, chat but you dont need a psychotherapist. And also I would not like that you start depending on what he or she says.

hugs,

Al