I feel trapped in a confined space. As though in a coffin six-feet under, scratching at the ceiling desperately though knowing there is no escape. I feel completely disconnected from reality and from people. I want to unleash so many emotions that are inside of me, but can’t seem to express any of them. I have been living in this pain and emptiness for so long, and my ability to cope and manage is falling to pieces. I feel I will be crushed under this pressure.
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u know i googled this page as a hint of ¨.. so you planning to kill your self¨
thats how i found it… try to read stories writen here.. i know it helped me…
in my situation i have no one to talk about, so reading other people thoughts and talking to them have helped me… share more. .. open up… i have no idea who u are, or where from.. have no means to hurt u , we all are here just to help each other… and thats what we r gona do…
u expane your depression as a cofin box, my image is a dark cloud that is following me… i feel pressed by it .. every time stronger and darker…
there many ways to slip back into reality and get out of all this pain, believe me I know,
talk to me if you like
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Trapped, buy a notebook, start journaling at least once a day for a while. Let the emotions out slowly using this so that you aren’t overwhelmed by the size of them and so that when you start to feel bad you can look back and realize you are probably doing better. It’s a nice way to ease some of the pain out. The emotion isn’t coming out otherwise because you are scared that it will overtake you. Do this. Journal. It works.
i am sorry but i don’t agree. journaling does not always help. it might for some people but not me. while i was in the hospital i was journaling every day until a doctor came in and told me it was a waste of time and it doesn’t really help anyone. i then threw my notebook across the room and never did it again. he was reprimanded and apologized to me but his words will never leave my head.
Thanks for your replies. I do journal, and I agree it helps a little bit. I’m only 23, but I have gone through a lot in my life. I have experienced deep depressions for years at a time, but finally last year overcame my own victimizing (to clarify, I stopped seeing myself as a victim.) But this is intolerable what I’m going through. This is the first time in my life I feel genuinely hopeless. It is not enough to say that I have lost the girl I’ve been in love with for the past couple of years, but that she is also living with someone twice her age, that she is engaged to him, and that she is living on an island in the Caribbean, that she is the only person whoever understood me and believed in me, and that now I question whether that was ever the case. I have been alone for a very long time, and do not connect very deeply with other people in my life. I would consider myself a very deep person, but for whatever reason basic communication and social situations confuse me. This is the first time in my life where I have felt as though I were trying to break free of my body; as though my soul wanted to burst right out of my chest. And yet when I try to let my emotions take me over so that I may release them, nothing comes.