Turtles All the Way Down

  April 21st, 2010 by Anna

Depression is a state of mind that ultimately is not curable. And so it should be embraced; death is for both the weak and those who realise the contention that exists in life. Ultimately, very little matters. Should you choose to contemplate suicide, you are realising that many questions simply can’t be answered. Personality disorder aside, life is still too much of a struggle for very little at the end of it all. If death is the only certain thing about life, why wait for it?

I have chosen to not live past July. And I think this song is amazing.

 

I have lived every day of my life thinking only of what I should think,
When I read back on everything that I have written on how I lived my life.
And in the process of doing so, I have started the chance to feel alive,
Just to stay an observer of an impartial observer.
Here I go again; I’m chasing my tail around the sun,
Standing beneath a tortoise, under an elephant, under the world.
The gravity of the battle means nothing to those at peace,
I can’t believe I thought my thoughts meant anything.
When we think we’ve reached the end, we’re only back where we begin.
When we think we’ve reached the end, we’re only back where we begin.
Superman. Superman. Superman.
We are starving to death on full stomachs, running miles; new hearts on old legs.
If I had known all the howls were false alarms oh, just imagine the ammo we’d save.
Here we go again; I’ll come to your party if it goes until four question marks at least- three or less and it’s not worth my time at all,
On nights like those my absence trumps my company.
When we think we’ve reached the end, we’re only back where we begin.
When we think we’ve reached the end, we’re only back where we being.
Superman. Superman. Superman.
I truly believe I’ll be remembered and that even this sentence will be studied.
Will you think I am wise because I’m aware of that? Or am I just killing myself before they get me?

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