why is it that i cant open up?
im always the girl who covers up her pain with a smile
im scared of anyone seeing the real me
the one who takes pills, drinks, and cuts
its not right i know
but it feels so good
in a way i wish someone would find out
just so they know the real me
but what if they hate me for it
i want someone to actually care
even though i dont care anymore
im not the perfect daughter my parents have built me up to seem
but they deny me being anything other than that
i dont think i can go on much longer
the only reason im still here is because i want to say that i at least made it to high school
only 5 more months then
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Open up then if you want to like a dandelion. You can do whatever you want it just takes courage. To really want your eight grade photo posted on the newspaper the title “Local Girl Kills Herself”. Do you want your parents to cry and feel horrible that maybe they get a divorce or become as depressed as you?Do you want a grave for people to kneel over?Try to open up because i promise someone cares even if it says they dont. How are you drinkning if you’re not even in high school?
@Charolette. I even drink and I’m the same age as you. But I’m still just as curious as you.
Also I agree that you should open up. Bloom into a beautiful flower. I assure you tht even though I don’t know you. I do care.
Correction. I do drink. But not a lot
I know but we shouldn’t because I dont want to became an alcoholic and I care too even though I don’t know you