I would like to say what I feel to someone, I would like to say that all I think about is to kill myself.
But I can’t. They would be worried, without knowing what to do. Just trying to cheer me up and feeling powerless.
I can’t do that to my friends. I just can’t.
Besides, they would try to help and I don’t want help, don’t want people knowing what’s going on.
All I want is tell what’s going on to my friend/boy that I like. I want to hug him and cry in his shoulder. His words would sound really good.
But I can’t. He would think that all I want was pity from him because he doesn’t like me like I like him. He would think that I was making it all up.~
OH… I’m so tired.
I just want a loaded gun.
It would be so easy.
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I know i feel the same way i use to tell my friend who i thought care for me about why i wanted to die. Now she says I just want attention and that i made everything up. Well dont give up on someone you cant forget remeber that. I dont know what to say since i feel the same way. But you never know until you try everyones diffrent.
You’re thinking what a lot of people think; that no one needs to know, that they don’t need to be troubled. If you don’t tell, you’re actually going to hurt them, too. If they are truly your friends, and they find out, they will want to help you because they care about you. Think about it–if you kill yourself, what are you doing to them? They might kill themselves, thinking that it was their fault. Now, I may be a bit drastic, but do you get my point? There are people who care. Also, you say you don’t want help? Then how are you going to get by? Dying really isn’t easy, even if you have a loaded gun. There is always the fact that you don’t know what happens next–and humans want to know. Try to find someone you can tell. Try: http://www.samaritans.org/ . It’s anonymous, and these people are actually wonderful to talk to.