It all started this year.
I found this amazing guy, & I’ve actually have known him since last year, I had a major crush on his best friend, & at the time, he was dating one of my close friends. But my friend eventually broke up with him & got with someone new. He asked me out, & of course I gladly said yes, I don’t know, he just was like one of those guys who could melt your heart in a split second. He totally respected me. & then one day, my friend & I were talking, & she told me all kinds of these things about him. Of course, I believed & broke up with him. It was all good, I didn’t care, I was happy. But when I saw him at the mall with this girl I know, I was pissed & slightly jealous. For some reason, after that happened, I just can’t get over him. When him & that girl finally broke up, we got back together again. It was a total on & off thing. I loved him so much, & he said he loved me back. He was such a sweetheart, & he always made me feel safe. We would always say we loved each other every night before bed. & then he walks out of my life. I was so fucking hurt! How could he say he loved me, & then just walk out on me! especially when I need him most right now since my parents are getting divorced. I can’t believe he lied to me, I thought he was the one for me, & he is on my mind all the damn time. I just wish he would leave. I cry when I think of him, & I really just wish, he never ever talked to me, then this would of never happened, & I wouldn’t be so hurt. & I really wouldn’t be harming myself.
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he said he loved you but when broke up with him the first time did he ever try and win you back? I don’t know if your feeling suicidal but you did say your were harming yourself… don’t, hurting yourself or killing yourself over someone isn’t worth it, someone else better than him will come along someday. don’t fall for anyone who always has a girlfriend straight after the other.