exactly nothing left just one more to go..me

What if it happens again. What if everything changes. Everything’s gone down a big hill and now its almost over. Since you left every things changed everything including me. Nothings the same i feel nothing sometimes its so hard to see. i do so many things that you would be ashamed of things that you would stop me from doing. But not now anymore no ones going to stop me. i want to die i just want to leave this world full of lies people that cant control anything. i thought that i would never be like this again i promised myself but that doesn’t matter. all i want now is to go. now you tell me what should i do. should i use a gun, a rope, jump off a bilding or what you did? what tell me because im tired of waiting tell me when your ready and i will be their. i promise