I already tried to kill myself in November 7, 2009, after I found out my ex had a new girlfriend. Clearly that did not work, and I ended up in a mental hospital for a week. Lately I had been feeling like my meds (Prozac) and therapy were finally working, but when I asked my ex if we could get back together he said no, and I feel all those thoughts returning again. I’m so ashamed for letting a man have so much control over my emotions. I wonder what is wrong with me that I feel like this? And I wonder why everyone else is so much happier? I don’t even care about this ex so much, I just hate the feeling of being rejected and feeling alone, lonely, and unloved. I found this website by googling “i hate this world” because I do. The irony of Â it all is that I am training to be a doctor! I love helping others, but I can hardly help myself. F this s.