1. there is no way i am getting rid of my guns (i have multiple, two pistols “glock 19 and .22lr”, an Assault Rifle “AK47″, and a sniper rifle”Remington 700”.) Â chances are that i would shoot my self with either the glock (less mess) or the AK47 (my most prized possession, its like a child to me) 2. there is no damn way im getting hospitalized cause i will be totally judged and i would not be able to join the army in 1 year if i decide to live after. 3. i have no medicine, i only told one friend and they dont take me serious and i will probably never tell my mom (only parent).
i just like this website because im not labeled different from everyone else. i could talk freely about blowing my brains 13 yards away from my body and no one judges me as a suicidal maniac. I want to wear a suicide awareness ribbon (yellow ribbon) that says im a survivor (ive tried killing myself once already with a gun to the head but thats another story that i might post at a later date) but i dont want to be looked at crazily for wearing a survivor “tag” and people think im completely unstable with everything. im only unstable with myself. im the only person i hate. but yea, any suggestions anyone on how i could better myself, i enjoy reading your ideas. it keeps me occupied and it keeps me company.
im gonna go but im going to leave on a depressing note because thats all my life has been:Â Â Â Â (I like to always say this to myself, “Your greatest enemy is yourself, so suicide would be an honor to the soldier inside of me. I would take out the worst enemy of all. Myself…”)
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You want to get better. What’s stopping you?
What’s stopping you from killing yourself? That’s the answer.
We still don’t know your story, how can we begin to help properly if were not sure what’s happened.
wish I had a gun, even a cap gun to play russian roulette lol.
that sounded a bit mean, sorry. I was just trying to keep it simple
Yeah, this website is really good because of that.
We can talk about suicide and everyone understands and no one judges.
Yes, tell us your story.
@imsorrymom: “Anna” commented to me: “post entitled “i still dont know what to do… help?â€, you basically told someone to just go and shoot themselves.”
if you felt the same way: it wasn’t supposed to sound like that, what I meant was: if you recognize the reason your still here then use it to help you get on better road.
There are so many pics of people that have survived a gun shot, especially arrow. I have met someone who was shot in the head and survived, they just remove the bullet and you have less of a brain. Die by avalanche if there is any snow after this global warming, no one would be able to save you. It’s mostly about where and when. The people working in the twin towers probably hired some one to end it all. Therefore the jumping. This planet is an animal factory.