My Life is a Failure

We need many more people like you. To feel the emotional pain you have and are feeling, can be an incredible benefit. It gives you insight to the hurt everybody else does and will feel to some degree, throughout life. I believe I felt much like you throughout my teens. Always figured I was just different, in a bad way. Eventually, I realized we are all different and I embraced my uniqueness.

To be able to relate to the energy in the depths of others pain can be an incredibly powerful driving force for you to change the World. Yes World. When some people feel pain, they want others to feel pain too and may act on that, releasing the energy of this pain in a very negative way. But some will use there own pain as a driving force to better their life and other’s; not wanting other people to have to keep feeling hopeless and hurting.

Pain and anger carry an incredible amount of energy with them. The trick is in learning how to channel this energy into positive avenues. I, in part, used this energy to find ways to better my own life in hopes that I could simultaneously be bettering other’s lives. Some examples: * better educating myself * getting involved in volunteer groups * learning to love my totally imperfect self (at least begin to tolerate myself while I was trying to find my way. The love did come).

I still have very down times and get disgusted with ME, but I feel that helps to prevent me from losing touch with other’s pain.

Please just try a little to understand using this energy to create greatness. A single step at a time. Turn poison into medicine. It sounds like your reservoir is full. Find positive outlets. They are there.

I’m not trying to preach. I’m only sharing what I have learned and I very much hope something in my comments can be of assistance to you.
Also, I hope you’ll continue seeing a doctor.

Peace & Love