So i got a new boyfriend and i love him alot. I kissed him good luck as he got ready for his band preformance im just scared that the girl i got in a fight will ruin it because i wont be her friend anymore. Since i blocked her from everything. But she was littarly killing me with every punch i took every time i got beat up and everything she said just got me closer to the feeling of death i just want to be happy to make a recovery from my depression i just dont think this girl is gonna let me do that 🙁
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Fight back. Kill her (figuratively speaking. Please don’t actually stab her). Haha. She deserves to know the pain you endure. Take karate lessons. Kick her sluty fat ass. (still in a possed of mood. Haha)
Make sure to be clear with your boyfriend about her so she won’t be able to ruin your new relationship with him.
Hello EmoChick,
I’ve been following your posts. Just a short note here. Please don’t think that girl has any control over your happiness. Create your environment, don’t let your environment create you. If she’s a miserable *****, she’s probably hurting too. People like that are in our life so we can feel the ugliness of the world, therefore we are able to recognize, create and appreciate the beauty of the world.
In reading your posts, I have become amazed with you. You’re awesome!
wow unity thats the first time anyone has ever said that to me they usally say your ugly, slutty, *****, **** licking whore. Thanks I don’t know what to say. And yes your right i shouldnt be letting this ***** control me but even when i warned my boyfriend about her before (this is are 3rd time going out) he always ends up dumping me cause she beats him up until he says okay and i dont want him to get hurt just so he can make me happy…….. on myspace today she posted that my happiness with him is over and that i better grab my knife and some towls cause this is gonna end messy…………
Hello emochick. Though I assume that people really may have been saying those things to you, your dark and intelligent sense of humor does make me laugh.
You posted a message on the 18th. Much of what the people had to say to you in regards to that girl, really made sense to me. Distance yourself from her. A little and then a little more and more… When you do talk to her, tell her some of the things you said in the 5/18 post. About wanting her to be happy and the rest of what you said. Quit approaching this situation from a pissed off point of view. It really muddies your thinking and your life condition. Pray for her happiness. Really!
But do move on. She needs to know she can no longer be in your life if she’s intent of being such s negative influence. Obviously she’s going to be in your surroundings to a point it sounds, due to school and such. So you really do have to approach this in a positive way. Not looking to say something negative in order to make her hurt. That will bring negative to you. You can tell her the same thing but in a way where you are trying to help her, and therefore help yourself. Be definite, be strong, do not waver. No matter what, begin to approach this with a desire to turn poison into medicine. Be consistent and persistent in your attitude and actions toward this situation (and actually all situations).
I’ve been reading you responses to others on this website. You genuinely have been trying to assist some people who are going through some very serious situations. The most serious. But, regardless of your own hell you have been consistently reaching out to others to try and give them some reason to continue living; some reason to have at least a moment of happiness. Especially for someone your age. That is incredible! AWESOME!! I find it difficult to put into words the beauty of your efforts. The beauty of you! I find it very hard to believe that you will have anything less than an incredible journey throughout your lives.
Recognize your beauty. Live that. It would be a terrible shame for you to not begin and continue to recognize, evolve and live the energy of this beauty. Ditch the ugly except for purposes of learning and gaining wisdom!!
Sorry to write so long.
Peace & Love
I’m trying the best i can and it aint working to well and thanks again. Today I had to leave school early sick and just when i got there i told my boyfriend about what this girl was gonna do. He said he loved me and would do anything for me. Then a friend of the girl that wants to break us up comes up and says she needs to talk to my boyfriend. I told her if she needs to talk to him she can talk to me to we dont need secrets. She said i dont want to talk to you your a *****. I said look who’s talking trying to seperate us why dont you just get over the fact were not friends and move on with your life instead of making mine a miserbal hell. She then said well that would be to easy. Then turned to my boyfriend and said talk to you in class since they have the same class together. I told him im sorry he has to go threw this and i understand if he no longer wants to date me to save him self from the drama. Then he went to class. After that i went home sick and have no idea what they said to him. I just dont see why they dont move on im thinking of helping them in a way cause they lost a friend and i was thinking maybe if i got that friend back for them if they might leave me alone im just not sure if it would help me in the end or just give them more support in hurting me? I broke my cutting streak today i was so upset about the situation i dont understand why they cant leave me alone! I was thinking about hanging myself i would of if i didnt have the support from this site. It makes me feel as if i might be missed if i was to one day dissaper from the planet even though i know you may not feel an emotion since you only know me on the internet and not in person. I just wish I had a normal life. I wish i could handle things better 🙁
Yes you would be missed here by many I’m sure. I feel I know you more than I know most people I talk to in person. I sure hope you don’t disappear from the planet 🙂
he he, i bet someone is having a crush on you here. I bet we ll get some married couples out of this website. He likes you. Good luck: ) the best way out of depression is falling in love.
what is unity a boy sorry it doesnt really say well is it true and thanks again it gives me some strength knowing i may be missed. And your right i feel like people on here know me better then anyone besides me in the world. Its just easier on here to talk to people i wish i could meet someone from this site in person someone around my age i think it would help with alot of things. I like this site its way better then councling
@oracle: What are you talking about?! Let’s not start trying to express our thinking on other people’s motives for commenting to someone. I’m in a very faithful relationship and anyway wouldn’t try hitting on someone on this, or actually any site. People here have enough to deal with without having me to figure out. I am impressed with emochick and express that along with anything else I may respond to her. Take Care:)
K ugg i talked to one of the chicks friends tonight and she said she was sorry I really dont beleive her my cousin was also helping me talk to them or all hell was gonna break lose i was cutting the entire time. they started bringing up my STD and threating me if i tell on them for hurting me for all this time they will tell everyone. I dont want people to know. I dont want everyone scared to look at or talk to me. But if this gets spred i might as well lie my grave cause im toast after that………….
Hello. I’m happy to see one of the girls apologized. Even if it’s not so genuine, something compelled her to say this, so it’s a start.
I totally would deny the STD thing (except to someone you were sexually with). From the way these people have treated you, I’d think the other students realize these people have been bad mouthing you and very easily would believe the story was just them being vindictive.
I thought you were stopping cutting.
i did to and no they only were alpolagizing because they wanted to try being friends again they didnt mean it after i said no after she ask she siad she never ment it she just want to mess with me and didnt see anyother person they could hurt that was to stupid not to tell i want to tell what they said but they said if i do theyre gonna beat the living shit out of me im really scared now…………………… and ya i really though i was done with the cutting i havnt done it for 3 weeks but then i just couldnt take it and started it up again i really dont think i can stay on this world anymore and i have a plan to get off……… and as soon as i jump it wont matter their would be no way to stop it at all. I would slat against the ground and then it would be over the pain, hurt, abuse, sadness. Also aparently im the reason why one of them stoped eating and is trying to die to. But this is also the same girl that is the reason behind my sucidal attemps oooooooo im so confused. lost . hurt. i dont think im gonna make it to tuesday. hopefully i will be long gone i cant take it anymore…………..
Hello. Please take a look at The Bully-Suicide Project website (bullysuicideproject). It has many resources, people to talk to online or on the phone and can even be in person dependent on your/their location. PLEASE check it out.
I very much hope you will be able to use this situation, and all negative situations in your life, as a springboard to really get on with the beautiful journey in life that you desire and deserve. I know it can suck to keep hearing things like ‘don’t give up’, ‘it’ll get better’, ‘be strong’… It begins to sound very empty. But what ever I offer you is due to experience. I believe in it. The things I may say to are what I have experienced, am experiencing in my life and others lives. And no it isn’t easy but it really does get easier to apply and believe with consistency!! You will build confidence and wisdom.
Please do contact The Bully-Suicide Project!! I will continue to chant for you!!
k i will check that out thanks for the advice if you have one one there to i will have the same user name emo chick
umm im to young is what its saying
I just went to the sight and was able to open an account saying I was 13. So then I tried with saying I was 12 and couldn’t. That is really stupid if they don’t deal with 12 and under. I don’t get it. I have sent them an e-mail to get specifics. So, just be sure to put 13 or higher. Are you really that young? Don’t answer if you don’t want to.
Whatever the problem was for you logging onto that site, just try again and manipulate your age if necessary.
There are many other sites too. Just inter school bulling or the likes. Try the site squidoo.com. They deal with multiple subjects but the cool thing here is that you can create your own web page for free. They assist you. It’s a great learning tool. Just check it out and roam the site. You could really use your experiences in a very powerful way. Even branching off to create your own organization for youth and run by youth. No, it’s not far fetched at all. Just start. I’d be more that happy to get one of my female friends that are in the web business to talk with and assist you. You have an incredible amount of knowledge in this area if you believe it or not.
Hello EC. While there are many excellent methods for our use towards success in our life (whatever success may mean to each of us), too often very few of these actually work for many of us. Why? Because we either don’t follow through with or even try them. I only bring this up because I sincerely wish for you to pursue some of these. Create your life!
I know there are mother ugly things that have happened to you a while back, and now your recent life seems to have been nothing but (I don’t know for how long) this situation with these girls. Yes that is there, but please open your mind and heart to where you would like to journey. What you want in life. Start to take a few steps on this journey. I see a very kind side to you even in the midst of all the hate that seems to be swirling around you. That shows so much strength. Build on the beauty. Check out the websites I suggested.
I know I’m going to start a Victory Over Violence website through the squidoo.com site, and then take it from there. VOV is a project I and some jr.high and high school youths created in 1997. It was created within my religious organization but know I’m going to bring it more into the secular community.
You can start your own project. I went back to past posts on the suicideproject website as I remembered you had mentioned your age. For some reason I thought it was 16. I was suprised to see what it really was. At your age and the wisdom and experiences in your life, the possibilities are limitless. Please turn the ugly poison that has been in your life into beautiful medicine. Easier said than done, yes I know.
You most definitely could create community projects. The only reason you couldn’t would be if you didn’t try. You have so mush to offer the world!!!!! I hope sooooo much that you get on this track. Myself included, I know many people with experience in starting and continuing with these projects. It’s a very awesome journey!
* Think about something positive you would like to be involved in now.
* Research info on it (as much as you can). Really get to know the cause. It might be horse ridding, anti-violence projects, a teen forum on specific topics or any topic, ways to help old people in convalescent hospitals, and on and on and on. So much to choose from.
* Start a webpage on squidoo.com. They teach you how). Get others involved, like maybe a school project. From there it just blossoms into areas you could have never imagined. I have definitely seen this.
You will be amazed at the number of doors that will open to you as you pursue your project. If your project is one that is to better your community/world, you’ll see City hall doors open. You’ll create contacts all over the place.
Please dream/imagine beauty and take a few steps with that everyday. You need something very positive in your life to dwarf and extinguish the ugly stuff going on around you. It seems that’s all you see these days.
If you allow others to create your world, you’ll regret it everyday of your life.
Peace & Love
John
thanks for the suggesting and yes i am really 12 i will try the cite hopefully we dont have to be older the 12
I can’t remem the last time a girl shot the school up so do that.
EmoChick. I hope you still get on here and look.