i cant sleep. i know its the depression and suicidal thougths. it happened the last time. its a warning that im getting really bad. its horrible. i feel like a damn zombie. but at least im not hallucinating. It only happens when im really, really bad and pretty much only lasted two days leading up to my first attempt. I know i havent told my story yet and im sorry about that. you have to understand though, the last person (and only person) i told turned their back on me and pretty much laughed in my face about me killing myself. it was my closest friend. the one and only person i trusted alot. and they fucked me over. i just dont want that to happen again.
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insomnia is a real *****, I’ve had times were I thought I was about to pass out from tiredness and got in bed but still couldn’t fall asleep…wtf!
whatever reason you have you won’t get ridiculed here, it’s ok though if you don’t want to share… as a matter of fact I’m certain I have the most dumbest reason here. Anyway it’s really good to hear from you.
Insomnia is my affliction too and exscerrbates my depresson and addiction. I feel you on that one dude.
Tell us your story! We are all feeling like you to some degree or another and the best part is there’s complete anonimity. Nobody has to know who you are or have your buisness get spread like if I told some of the crazy shit I think about to any family member or close friend they would probalbly have me locked up.
Beyond that I can honestly say there are some cool and intelligent people on here that, disite wanting to pice themselves up too, will liisten to your story and try to help you. The highlight of my day some times is coming here to read new posts and their discussions, *eghhm* THAT’S NORMAL . . . It feels good to just type out your thoughts no matter how pissed or random they are. It will make you feel better yo.
Those are two very thoughtful responses. We’re with you!
Hey hon, on a site like this no one is gonna judge you, cuz we all feel pretty much the same way… for different reasons, so chill okay? =)