Tyrant

Hello Steven. We all have vast potential to spread ugliness and beauty. Your letter shows your desire for both. All of this reply to you is just my opinion and I’m not pretending to know how to fix your concerns. But I have been through hell and back many times and I know what I believe. To a point anyway.

You obviously are not only ‘this person’ you speak of. That you recognize the error of ‘this person’ is huge in that it shows your love. Yes! Could be if you were to focus on why you feel accomplishment when you inflict pain, you could better understand why you’re doing it.

Have you ever really thought about love, hope and happiness? Why someone would need it in their life? How people feel without it? The incredible gift it is when we instill these things in others lives. I believe when you sincerely attempt to connect yourself with another and give them these gifts, this beauty begins to overtake the ugliness inherent in our lives. We always will have that potential for ugly, but we can make that our minor, instead of our major.

Please don’t just go through the motions. Try to understand and feel the effect of the cause you are making. The ongoing emptiness and ugliness of fake kindness as opposed to the snowball effect throughout your life of real kindness. Enjoy the kindness you can share by realizing how it really feels. Bask in the reality of kindness instead of throwing fronts at someone. Allow your beauty to smother the ugly.

I hope that somehow this made some sense to you.