I didn’t get to say goodbye to my son. He took his own life because he couldn’t cope with his pain anymore. I’ve had a lot of very bad things happen to me in my life but his death…the way he died was the absolute worst thing to ever happen in my life and I am having extreme difficulty trying to live…just waiting to die now. I have no way to cope with this event. I know that tomorrow may or may not get better and that I have to be alive to find out what will happen and that is the only thought that keeps me alive. I have to wait until tomorrow. The worst thing that could ever happen has already happened.