Where do I start and go?
There is nothing on this earth worth living for.
Everyday I live with anxiety, low self esteem and fear.
I am 21 and I’m from a broken family, I don’t think I’ve ever been loved from anyone on this earth. I was molested by my grandfather at a young age before he died, My father has anger issues called myself and siblings fat and i’ve watched him physically and emotionalyÂ abuse my younger brothers, i’ve raised my older sister with downsyndrome until she was older enough to take care of herself.
My mother has schizopherna and I’ve watched her constant suicide attempts throughout my child hood (my own mother doesn’t lve me enough to stay in this world), I’ve come home from being bullied to find no one at home, and haven’t been able to get food for my sister or brothers. The only friend who i had who I told I didn’t want to live posted on myspace that i sucked the life out of her.
My friends abandon me they will all leave you unless you’ve got something to offer them. People are greedy they take take and take until theres nothing left.
I don’t have the strength or will to keep living, people also tell me that suicides the most selfish thing you can do? Isn’t it more selfish to not let someone to be happy so that you don’t have to live without them? I want to die, This world is selfish and hurtfull, the world will end in time. I will never get to do what i wanted too I’ve died in order to get full time work in a job I don’t like so that i an support a family that doesn’t love me! I’m only 21…
When the times right I’ve decided to jump in front of a train – quick death