All I’ve ever wanted was to die. I first attempted to kill my self at 7
I’ve had 8 serious attempts at suicide. Failing at that just made me hurt more. The people that know me would be so surprised at how much fear I’m in. They never see that side of me. But I am so scared. But it’s just waking up tomorrow that scares me the most. I get scared that I might be immortal. I know that’s crazy. I just can’t stanmd the crushing feeling all the time. The panic attacks. I’m rambling now aren’t I?
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I don’t want to diminish the severity of what you said by saying that I commonly know what it’s like, but I really do. You’ve attempted it 8 times and yet failed at killing yourself each time. Might that be an indication that you don’t sincerely want to die, but simply wish to escape the pain? It’s either that or you’re very unsuccessful at killing yourself. I think that you don’t really want to die, you just want to escape the pain. Ofcourse, the only way to do that sometimes is to end our lives. We’d rather live an ideal life than simply die, but since that doesn’t seem to be attainable, or attainable soon, we choose to live no life than the life we’re currently living. That’s perfectly understandable. There are surefire ways to end your life and I’m sure that you’re aware of them. Knowing that you having used them should be indicative that you really seek help more than a means to ending your life. If you share more about what’s bothering you, perhaps we can help a little.