I’m ready to give up

I’m so alone, and the way things are going it doesn’t look like it’s going to get any better. i’ve just failed my third suicide attempt… something that makes me feel even worse – am i that much of a fuckup i can’t even get that right??? I overdosed on my partners spare insulin and slashed my wrists at the same time… i failed but my body is still fucked up.
Tomorrow i’m back in a homeless hostel. I’m at my parents for the second night after having to move out of my partners flat – he took me and my daughter on after i got kicked out, but it’s so damn hard to get work right now; 70 fucking CV’s, and only 3 interviews, all of which i failed. he couldn’t support me anymore so i had to leave. I miss him so much right now, and the relationship is on a thin string, all i want is to lie in bed and hold onto him.
I feel like a terrible mother to my child, she’s 2 and all i do is scream at her for the stupiudest things, i’m not providing her with a stable life and she’s worth so much more than what i can give her. I’m at risk of losing her because i’m now seeing a psychiatrist for a potential personality disorder.
For all the folk who are still teens, living at home – please believe me when i say its not that bad. i know there are people worse off than me but theres so much else going on in my life. Please look at the fact you have everything to look forward to – relationships, no kids, partying out, potential for new friends no debt, a home… please make the most of it all if you can, and don’t fuck it up. i wish i could draw the clock back 3 years.