so i just turned thirteen about a month ago. i havent had a boy friend in about 4 or 5 months. i dont care though. i have my friends and that’s all i really care about. im on the cheerleading squad. im on the soccer team. next year i’ll be on the speech team. (i like having a lot of extra curricular activities so im not stuck at home day in and day out)
i have several best friends (casey, wylie, kirsten, and sometimes julia) they have helped me through a lot of things. i return that favour as often as i can. when Kirsten’s sister’s best friend died i was there throughout it all. i love them and i wouldnt survive without them.
in our town strange things happen. a new trnd has started up. every year a senior dies. my friends were talking about how one of them was probably going to die. it scared me. the thought of living without them frightened me and i almost started to cry at the thought of it. my eyes got watery and then they all gave me a hug and said that if one of them died they would watch over me especially because i was delicate and they couldnt stand the thought of me all alone. (ok so im not THAT fragile but im their baby. they protect me from a lot of things) what really scared me though was that what if i was the one to die senior year? no one would be up there waiting for me? well aside from my cat Mafara who i absolutely LOVE who died three winters ago… i couldnt stand a life without any of my friends. i’d go knocking on death door’s itself to getÂ them back (i know cliche but VERY true) i would also trade my life for theirs even if im more than a little scared of going to heaven or whatever it is that our souls go to…
personally i sort of like the idea of reincarnation. i like it because it makes me think that there will ALWAYS be a next time. there will be a next time to see my friends. or a next time to say i love you or a next time to hug my besties.
i know this was a little pointless and probably a waste of your time but feel free to leave a comment if you’d like to.
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