my life..please, help me.

i am 14 years old, i just turned 14 on the third..my friend of 9 years died of cancer that same exact day so i’ve always hated my birth. and not just because of that. i have schitzophrenia, and 6 mild dieseses. heart palpitations, acid reflux, hempoteisis, and so much more. but none of them can actually take my life, which sucks. i over dose every day just cause it numbs me up. i haven’t been depressed for very long, only about 5 or 6 months. but it has effected me so much. i know suicide is wrong and that i would hurt so many people i just need help. no one understands me, there’s no one to talk to. it’s like i’m alone, me and against the world.

someone, help.