Im 14 years old. Star of my softball team but unpopular. No boyfriend and only one friend who has tried suicide. She luckiy got out of it. I have two younger siblings who look up to me for everything. Resently, my parents have been out drinking everynight leaving us at home. I feel abandoned. What am I supposed to tell my siblings? Our parents are hopeless drunks who would rather hang with friends than their own kids? My dad is always saying how he regrets having us. Well now I am regreting him having us. I cant take it. I feel trapped. My friends say I have it so good. If I have it so good than why do I feel this way? The only reason I am alive is because of my siblings. And right now they hate me. I dont know why. … I hate life. Who can I turn to if I cant turn to my parents? I plan to tell them but I dont know how. They scare me to much for me to go right out and blame them. Plus my dad would get ticked and say Im a big sissy. I dont know what to do. I guess Im kinda embarrassed. Help.