when i was a teenager i tried to kill myself, was not really succsessful as you can tell, because my tutor noticed i am not in class again and called mum. I was at home, took a big bowl of all drugs i found in the house, including up to date and old ones, sleeping pills, everything. Because mum left work early to find me i was unconscious but ok and was sent to hospital where as you can imagine was treated with no respect as it doesnt really matter because i wanted to end my life, doesn’t it? i am in my twenties now, just graduated, been supporting mum as much as i could, studying away in the capitol so that we could both move here together now. Ive been working a lot along with my studies, same and more hours than my mum, supporting myself and as I am alive still i dont want to be. I have just booked tickets to spent some time with mum and she said she doesnt want me to come. She was the only friend i thought i had, its been only her and me all my life and i havent found true friends anywhere else. I just dont want to BE anymore. Past four days ive spent sleeping, day and night. Can i try again what i tried before?