ive just turned 16 and been in the crappest situations since a year back exactly, ive tried to commit suicide more than enough times, i guess i’ve just never had the courage to take the pain, i try find something painless or quick, but theres nothing, but im really getting to the point where i just dont care about the pain anymore and i just want to do it, i keep caring less and less everyday about it and i cant stop. i just wanna go to a better place, i moved schools following majour bullying problems and fit myself in at a new school which ive now left and going onto college, in a relationship that to be honest is aload of shit but i love him that much i really just cant let go. today was the day the last pieces of strings broke. we’re not too good, i hardly have any friends, or anyone i can trust to talk about this to so its all cramped up inside my head and heart piling higher and higher and its starting to kill me and i really dont know what to do, i know i need help, but i dont trust anyone except total strangers from other places that dont know anyone i know. and tbh not everyone gets me. but now, its starting to kill me; and i really dont have nowhere to run:'(
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Your i guess in the same situation i am. I dont have friends at all and my boyfriend just dumped me yesterday and i loved him. Our relationship was crapy all these past 15 months weve been together but just like you i never could leave him no matter how much pain he caused me. I dont trust anyone either but like you i need some serious help too and well ive turned to this website wiht people that dont know me. You should learn to let go of him because you will get worse because thats what my ex had caused me all this time and now i hate life more then i used too and soon he will get tired of you IF your depressed. My ex got tired of me. He said he couldnt take someone like me. It did hurt a lot but this time i wasnt gonna try to kill myself like all the other times i tried because i know that you shouldnt beat yourself for someone that you know deep down doesnt care about you.
thankyou:/ you’ve kinda made me think alot, hes hit me a few times:/ had me in hospital twice, maybe i really do need to think about it :^) thankyou, and good look getting on with your life, just enjoy being single:D!