I live an uncomfortable life under my own roof. I am a 21 yr old indian girl who feels like there is nothing left to live for anymore. Everyday I hold the guilt of committing a big sin, hating my family! They aren’t the worst family around but neither the best. I hate them for not understanding me and giving me the love and support I always needed. They have this complete wrong image of me, continuously negative towards me. I am always in trouble and constantly get told off! I feel like I cant breathe when I want to, how I want to! I have a life full of restrictions on going out etc. I haven’t done anything too wrong in my life, apart from not getting good results. I hate to bad mouth my family or to even hate them but I can’t help how I feel. I cant live with hating my family, the people I am suppose to love most. I feel more towards my friends simply cos they accept me for who I am and understand me better. At many times I have to the decision of ending my life but I feel like a coward. Deep down I know I’m a strong girl but its not about giving up, its about hating to live a life full of guilt and hate! I am so clueless! All I want is a bit of love genuineness and support!