I am constantly unhappy. My boyfriend is the source of my unhappiness. I can never leave him because in my mind he was my first everything and I love him and will die without him. No one understands what I am going through, they say I am weak for not just dumping him and living my life. I can never leave him and when he tries to leave me I want to kill myself. He is with me but always says it’s over and he has cheated and fucked me on the same day and I have so much honors classes homework that I can never finish on time. My counselors ignore the pain I am in, they fail. I just wanted to be loved. If I was loved by my boyfriend then the rest of my life would balance out PERFECTLY. He is the one who should be loving me, not leaving me. All this stress and I just want to talk to him and he ignores my calls and texts. I feel so unloved all I can do is cry to my pillows, no one wants to listen.
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Hey imonlyme:
I am here to listen to you. I hope at some point you come back to read this message. But honey, I’ve just experience heartache lastnite. I know what you are going through. See i never was the one in this position.i was always on the other end. But you know what beautiful, at some point you’ll get over the hurt and the pain. In my personal life experience, i’ve learnt that you can’t make someone your whole life and your everything because when they are gone you’re left with nothing. Learn to love you more than you love anyone else. I was taught that when entering a relationship, you both should always go in with ur cups 100% full so that none of you guys take away from each other but only build each other up. If he really is for you then don’t be afraid to let him go because at some point he’ll have to return. Peace be with you:). If you ever need to talk contact me anytime at angeloflight91@hotmail.com
You know what I always do with my boyfriend who is exactly like yours? Nothing. I do whatever he wants. I let him do whatever he pleases.. But whenever I have summoned up enough courage, I try to leave him. But he wont let me..He would physically restrain me.. I know how it feels to depend on this one man for your every happiness and feel like you cant breathe when he’s not there anymore. I know exactly how you feel because I am going through it right now. We cant get through them.. we can never get anything right… We cant be loved the way we were supposed to… When you get enough courage, give him a peace of your mind, scream at him.. tell him everything that hurts you.. then leave and never turn back.. i know you will come back if he begs you… but at least you get another 2 weeks of the honeymoon period to look forward to before everything goes to shit again…