I am constantly unhappy. My boyfriend is the source of my unhappiness. I can never leave him because in my mind he was my first everything and I love him and will die without him. No one understands what I am going through, they say I am weak for not just dumping him and living my life. I can never leave him and when he tries to leave me I want to kill myself. He is with me but always says it’s over and he has cheated and fucked me on the same day and I have so much honors classes homework that I can never finish on time. My counselors ignore the pain I am in, they fail. I just wanted to be loved. If I was loved by my boyfriend then the rest of my life would balance out PERFECTLY. He is the one who should be loving me, not leaving me. All this stress and I just want to talk to him and he ignores my calls and texts. I feel so unloved all I can do is cry to my pillows, no one wants to listen.