seems like ive tried everything to let go. I have this boyfriend and well its not all the good. My life has been bad ever since i was in 6th grade. Right now it summer and well im going to tenth grade soon. Ive been cutting myself ever since i was in 6th grade. No one ever knew i did that until i reached 8th grade. I started going out with my boyfriend at that grade. Since then my life has gotten worse. I cut myself ones so deep that i had to get stiches. People stare at my arms everytime they get to see my scars. I have taken pills so many times but it hasnt killed me with every try i got. My boyfriend and i have done so much together which is why i dont want to let him go. I guess i love him or maybe i think i do. He has hurt me too much to make me want to live anymore. I cry every night and im always thinking about suicide and im only 15. I go to therapy and i have a lot of people i can talk to but they dont help me. I act like everything is okay so i can get out of it. Even when i showed how sad i was they wouldnt help which is why i want to get out of it. I just need someone to talk to. I really want to get out of here, but no one understands me.
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You are very young for someone who has had relationships with boys. At your age it is very difficult to handle these kinds of things emotionally. The main thing you need to focus on is meeting people who are kind to you and do not abuse you. If someone is constantly abusing you, then they are not your friend, they are evil and you should get rid of em. Make nice friends, people who are kind. That is the only way to stay sane in this world. So, you really need to make some new friends. If you can put yourself in a positive environment you will not want to cut yourself anymore. If your family sucks too, then keep yourself alive until you are 18. Then you can get financial aid and go to college, and choose nice people to spend your time with. You obviously have some very cruel individuals in your life, and perhaps you should fight with them to make yourself feel better. Fighting is much better than giving up and being abused. Whatever you do, do not harm yourself. Do not allow your tormentors to “win” by destroying yourself.
I agree with alex1981…well said. People who want to kill themselves remind me of black holes..no amount of caring can fill up that hole. I hope you listen to the good people that are here on this sight, because they care for you. I remember 15 like yesterday..really emotional. Fight..and do not let anyone tell you that you are not worth it or that life is not worth the fight…it is!
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She is 15. How old are you ?
i am 15