I tried to commit suicide three times already and need help or advice

I’m going to be 34 soon and don’t ever feel that I will make it. I have this constant fixation on killing myself and cannot afford medications. I have lost my job, have not worked in over a year. I have run out of money, racked up a huge amount of medical debt from being hauled off in a cop car to the hospital and all I want to do is get on medication and get stable. I had to move in with my parents who don’t understand or even really care about my panic, anxiety, depression and isolation. I also hear voices and was given a prescription for schizophrenia which was working miracles in the hospital. But now I am too scared to do anything like go outside or drive, I cannot pay for medications that were actually working along with the stress of not functioning well socially if I try and do a job interview so I go back to a viscous cycle of not being able to find work or have a normal life. My mom thinks schizophrenia is a choice so she ignores me and the severity of my illnesses. I recently went into a store and had anxiety so bad that my arms went numb and my vision went black and I was not safe to drive. How can I get medical help that I can’t pay for. I have no incoming cash, and am just scared all of the time. All I think about is self injury, and trying to overdose to get rid of the pain of having no one around me that cares. I’m ignored like mental illness does not exist so I feel dead already. I called United Way to see if they could help and sure enough, cop cars show up at my house take me away, I get meds for 6 days and boom, left with a prescription that I cannot afford to fill. Now what? I can’t even do anything on a sliding scale because I have nothing to give. I stay awake for days at a time and sleep for days at time thinking nothing is worth it. If there is a reason for everything, than what is my reason of being subjected to pain and suffering with no help…. I almost had to go to a homeless shelter because for some reason my mom though that would get me a job faster. She is so stupid and hurtful which just adds to the madness. I’m really hoping someone will have some answers because I don’t think I will make it to 34. I came close a few times but probably could have gone all the way if I didn’t call a crisis line. Handcuffs are no fun;-( Nor, is life