i dont want to deal with all the shit that has become my life
i dont want this anymore…im tired of trying to be someone when im no one
im tire of trying to impress my family into loving me
im tired of being the freak
im tired of being the one who never felt like i belong
NOT EVEN IN MY OUN FAMILYS HOUSE DO I FEEL LIKE I BELONG
not even when i hear something thats sopose to mean something do i feel like it could ever be true
i always try to feel IM TIRED OF ALL THIS, IM TIRED OF FEELING ANYMORE
i can never get close to anyone because i know their going to leave be behind like everyone else
i can never try to love anyone because im affade their going to leave me
im affade to love anyone what a puthetic peace of shit ive become
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Hey there the facelessone:
I just want to tell you to hold on and stand firm. I’m not going to try to tell you that I understand where you are in your life or what you are going through but I could sympathize with you. I wish that you could see how great of a person you are. Never allow your situation and circumstances define who you are where you are going. Contintue to be strong and look within yourself for happiness. Don’t be afraid to love anyone, Don’t be afraid to be yourself, Don’t be afraid talk to someone. Don’t be afraid to try becuase you think that you’ll fail. Be of great courage and hold firm. And P.S………it’s good to be a freak sometimes because it means that you do not conform to the ‘status qou’, it means that you are an individual; that you stand for something..something different. So you know what be a freak! You are who you are! Learn to love you for you and eventually others will. Peace be with you:) Contact me at angeloflight91@hotmail.com if you ever need to talk. Love you.
You are reading my mind. The words you wrote sound like they are coming from me. I wish you the best and hope that you (and I) find peace. Somewhere out there, there has to be someone that loves us. If it is any hope. Your words made me feel like I am not alone with these feelings. There are others who feel this way. You are in my thoughts!
I get so tired of feeling this way. I can relate to your words. I stumbled upon this site by typing, “why do I always have to feel like shit??” and googled it. I am so tired of feeling the nothingness- day in and day out.
Reading your thoughts reminded me that I suffer from an illness. An Illness with no cure, only therapy and medication that only sometimes helps. And when it’s possible, if I can remember in the darkest moments that it won’t always feel “this bad” it is only then that I can find a glimpse of hope that the fog will lift.
Hoping you find that glimpse. You helped me get through another day.
Reading this, its like a mirror. You are like me. They say there is hope, but it gets tiring. Hoping. Forcing yourself to be shiny, new and perfect for everyone just to fall flat on your face and be mocked. Feeling, and being made to feel that we will never get anything right and we are just wasting space on earth.
I read somewhere that Suicide is not chosen, it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain… how can you be strong and have courage when you feel empty and hollow….